Lunar*Paradox

MOVING OUT!!

2007-03-15T03:15:00.000-07:00

I'M OFFICIALLY MOVING OUT!!

GOODBYE FAITHFUL BLOGSPOT, I ENJOYED OUR TWO WONDERFUL YEARS TOGETHER! :)

VISIT MY NEW HOME @ HTTP://WWW.LIVEJOURNAL.COM/~MOONKATZCHEN

SEE YOU THERE! :)

:: Food for Thought ::

2006-12-10T23:46:00.000-08:00

I've noticed that I write better when I'm depressed.

Or very melancholy at least.

Hmmm... at the rate I'm going~

I suppose I seem to have been TOO happy lately.

My writing sucks... my angst has somehow been~

peeled off.

For now~

Happy Holidays!! :)

2006-12-07T09:47:00.000-08:00

Before I forget, I would want to greet everyone a HAPPY DECEMBER!! ^^ Yay~!! It's my favorite time of the year--- I love the Christmas season. :) Vacation, Parties, SLEEP, food, and gifts gifts gifts!! Wee~!! :P

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Anyway, it's been centuries since I've been able to write a decent entry. This semester has been eating me alive quite literally!! I haven't had time to do much of anything except go to school and study~ I haven't been sleeping right lately either. Hmmm... probably the reason why more than a handful of people have told me that I seemed rather harassed/stressed/tired lately. I actually got a nice long rest yesterday--- and today~ so I'm happy. :) Yay!!

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Compared to my last entry, I'm actually feeling better now. Haha~ I guess I was just really depressed last time. I supposed I'm having a hard time adjusting to the much heavier work load this sem--- to think I thought that I've never worked harder than I did last semester!! This sem proved me wrong... and it's not even a month into the sem~ x_x;;

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I'm struggling with Theology with Dr. Natividad~ she's draining me... @_@ Ionno, I guess I just can't find her kiliti haha~ she's funky weird. Pfffft~ Our Eco teacher is a pain in the ass... I don't think she really knows how to teach, plus the fact that she loves to "levitate her own bench" (a superlative for the expression "nagbubuhat ng sariling bangko"). I find her class super boring, and it's really hard for me to focus. Other than that, my other classes are fine~ I especially like our Sociology and Anthropology (SA21) class thanks to our professor, Dr. Abad. :) He's really smart and funny~ and he's into theater, so he's really, really animated!! Haha ^__^ Fun!! Ooooh~ and Logic (Ph135) with Mr. Strebel has (so far) been exciting. I'm actually doing my homework in this subject--- and not complaining even if we have a quiz every single meeting. :P Wee~ I think I have my "math teacher syndrome" thing going on again... it's not math, but Logic pretty much relates to Math 12--- so it's freaky. Haha.

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So what else is new? Hmmm... I got early Christmas surprises just a week or 2 weeks ago. My parents got me a laptop!! Yay!! :D Now I don't have to stay up late just trying to finish up my papers... I can do them in school!! Also, my brother gave me a new MP3 player in exchange for lending mine to his girlfriend. Yay again!! My new Creative MP3 is much much better than my other one... sound quality is great~ and it has a bass booster to boot. ^^

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Well, nothing else new is happening--- shopping later Yay!! :) Oh~ and judo training starts next week. ^^ Wee, I'm actually quite excited... I miss wearing my gi~ plus the fact that I feel so naked in my shorts and t-shirt ensemble during Yoga. Haha. :P Sir Ariola's great though~ Tai Chi champion in the Philippines--- how cool is that? ;)

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I hope I get to update more often~ I never seem to have the time.

Rough times, bad trip times, sucky times, cataclysmic times... are still times I spend with you. :)

:: Resignation ::

2006-11-27T17:44:00.000-08:00

3 weeks into the school year and I'm ready to float like a dead fish in this aquarium otherwise known as SCHOOL. Everything is heavy!! Theo is heavy, logic is heavy... even our non-major subjects are heavy!! I don't know if it's because I haven't gotten by rhythm going yet... or I'm just thinking so many things over these days--- to the point that I haven't been getting much sleep. Paper-making keeps me up... but it's more of the nightmares I keep having that really keep me wide awake these past few nights. I feel tired and worn out though I don't really know why... besides schoolwork, nothing is really worth talking about.

Maybe I'm just horribly stressed--- I'm not yet used to too-taxing majors, and our Rizal course (though I love Mr. Ambeth Ocampo) has just proven itself to be the icing on my cake of academic turmoil. However, I can't stop thinking that academics has little to do with how I'm feeling right now--- I feel messed up, especially after all the things I've been learning about people. A lot of times I'm distracted or can't focus during class--- I'm aberrant and rather sensitive, especially when it comes to topics I've been consciously avoiding.

It's a horrible feeling to take up someone's emotional baggage then have to lug it around along with yours... and you have no one to turn to for help. Sometimes I feel so helpless and alone that I just want to sleep it all away--- and that's when the nightmares come. I have had no rest for more than a week... I feel like a zombie... or a soul on its way to hell.

I don't know why I'm so... out of it recently. Sometimes I have this uncontrollable urge to stab myself just to bring my head back to reality. I haven't been focused at all... even my sister has noticed it... it must be really obvious. I haven't had a good cry since forever... maybe because I've finally realized that I've been so weak, crying all the time and everything.

Right now, I guess I'm a little resigned to whatever I'm going through. There's nothing much to say... or rather, there is so much for me to say--- and no one willing to listen... or no one willing to understand. I have many sleepless nights ahead of me, many more zombie days... more stupid musings like this one~ and not one question answered... not one person to ask or talk to.

It's weird to knock on the door of the one person you KNEW perfectly would be there to listen...

only to have the door slammed back in your face.

Haha. I shouldn't really mind I suppose... it's his/her door anyway. ^_^

Lazy Crammer :P

2006-11-09T11:34:00.000-08:00

Nyahahaha!! After a million years of being too lazy to post... I'm finally typing another entry (since I'm bored more than half to death from bumming around the house for the past week)!! Compared to my last entry, things seem to be looking up for me now. :) Yay!! I'm happy again. ^^

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So what have I been doing during my sem break? Well, I went to Bicol with my family from the 29th to the first of November. I missed going to Bicol!! ^_^ Swimming!! Thus becoming a charcoal-colored pig from all the swimming and pigging out... but I could care less right now. :)

I got my grades recently... and I'm more than pleasantly surprised with my grades. ^^ I didn't expect such an outcome--- and I'm very grateful to my teachers. Yay!! :) Happy!! Now I have to psych myself up for the Second Semester. To be honest, the only reason I'm pumped up during the start of second sem is because I know in about a month we're going to have our Christmas Break (which is my favorite school break)!! :P

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I CAN'T WAIT FOR CHRISTMAS!! ^__^ I'm nearly done with my Christmas shopping!! Yay!! I want to go to divisoria with my sister already...!! DIVI!! DIVI!! DIVI!! :P

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Anyway, Tita Tin had her birthday celebration last night. HAPPY BIRTHDAY TITA TIN!! :) We had JOSE CUERVO and Absolut Kurant Vodka~ Super fun!! :) I miss my blockmates. T_T It was nice to spend time with some of them again last nightl. *Huggy* Tita Tin cooked most if not all our food (dessert included) and it was really good~ wah... Tita Tin I love your Tira Misu!! ^__^ No hangovers this time... good thing!! :)

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My schedule for this coming sem seems better than my last one--- no more 6-9 pm Philosophy class!! (Wah~ thank you Sir Roy and Sir Miguel for my miraculous grade in your subject) I have Logic with a heavy teacher though... I'm quite nervous. Our theology professor is known for being uber boring... Theo + Boring = Disaster for me. I'm just thankful that we're still intact as a block for around 3-4 out of 6 subjects. Block J = Security Blanket... Hehe. ^^;;

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*Ikaw. Sana alam mo mga prioridad mo... Tsk. Tsk. Tsk.

**Ikaw. Salamat. Salamat. Salamat. :)

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SECOND SEMESTER... HERE I COME!! ^_^

:: SEMBREAK!! ...and not loving it... ::

2006-10-25T20:36:00.000-07:00

Finally it's SEMBREAK!! YAHOO!! No more school!! No more exams!! No more none-effective cramming sessions!! ----I should be happy... but I'm really~ not. I'm bored actually... after days of sitting in front of the PC playing SNES Emulator games (which I thoroughly enjoyed mind you :P) and gaming on the PS2 (VP2 is sooooo depressing T_T)... I find myself bored, with a perpetual headache to boot--- and currently SO PISSED OFF at a bunch of people I expected more from. Tsk... Sometimes being the odd man out can get so infuriating. *Inserts a string of (#$*)(*$)#*(#%# here* GRABE!! P*ta... hindi kinaya ng powers koh ang mga taong ito*

**BREATHE IN... BREATHE OUT!!**

Anyway, speaking of SNES Emulators... I've finished a few games (which weren't short) on it, haha!! That's probably my only claim to fame to having been bumming around lately. :P

+ Sailormoon: Another Story [RPG]--- Mother of all RPGs!! Complete with link skills, wholesome story line, world map mode... almost the whole chicken caboodle of RPGs!! :) I was amazed!!

+ Chrono Trigger [RPG]--- Prequel to one of my all-time favorite RPGs: Chrono Cross. Trigger probably has one of the best story lines I have encountered!! Awesome story, great gameplay, good graphics (compared to A LOT of SNES games), etc. Wee~ I heart Crono and Marle ^.^

+ Harvest Moon [Sim]--- Predecessor of the Harvest Moon on Play Station. Pretty much the same goal: Create a good farm, get lots of money, raise cows and chickens, get married--- and maybe even get a baby before your 2 and 1/2 years are up. Addicting at first... but now I'm literally crawling through my last spring and summer because I'm bored out of my wits playing it. Once you're rich and don't really need anyting anymore, it gets lame. @_@

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As for PS2 gaming... we've finished Valkyrie Profile 2: Silmeria--- and it was *some superlative that I haven't thought of yet* game!! It was depressing though... I couldn't sleep for 3 days trying to come up with alternative endings in my head!! Haha~ freaky. :P But it was all worth it!! I recommend it to all the RPG gamers out there. ^_^

Next up is Final Fantasy X!! Hee... but for now, I'm playing Soul Calibur III and Billy's playing Gran Turismo IV. -Eherm- Talk about gaming junkies haha!! Oh well~ ^^;; It's Billy's fault--- blame him!! *meep!!* ;)

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Still pissed off... but recovering.

:: I Love Surprises!! :) ::

2006-10-19T19:25:00.000-07:00

This week has been filled with so much PRESSURE, STRESS, ANGER, and unexpectedly... full of SURPRISES too. ^_^ Hay... finals week can be soooooo trying~ *sigh* but well, Surprises have just given me sufficient high (I think) to survive my last exam (a PHILO ORAL EXAM WITH DEAN GARCIA) so hehe... not that easy. -_-;; Oh~ O.O What surprises? Well~

SURPRISE #1: Me and Billy just got ourselves a NEW PS2!!

Yay!! :) Haha, call it out of date--- but we're absolutely loving it!! ^_^ Add the fact that we're playing the 2006 Released prequel to Valkyrie Profile 1: Lenneth--- Valkyrie Profile 2: Silmeria!! Yaaaaaaay!! If we loved the first one, saying that we loved the second one as much is an understatement.

Silmeria comes with full 3d setting (but keeps its 2d gameplay), the BEST graphics (eat your heart out FFX :P), and of course--- the AWESOME storyline. Great Great Great!! Absolutely wonderful!! :) If you played VP1, you just HAVE to play VP2!! It's worth my last 80 pesos haha!! :P Which reminds me of my ______ peso debt to Billy~ haha!! ^_^;; The price of RPG gaming... oooooh~ but we lurve it so. *RPG Lurviiiiiiiin'* :)

SURPRISE #2: Exemption from my Filipino and History Finals!!

YEHEY!! :) A real life-saver!! I was supposed to have 3 final examinations last Tuesday (x_x) but thanks to Mr. Manaois and Mr. Diccion~ I only had one left!! Yay!! :) Too bad for History though... I would have wanted a chance to pull my grade a grade higher~ *sigh* but oh well, my pre-final grade was already a pleasant surprise. :) For Fil~ I'm more than thankful!! I didn't expect it since Fil has been troublesome for me since HS!! Haha... so thank you sir!! :)

SURPRISE #3: Unexpected A in my Science and Society Orals!!

Wow!! I didn't expect this at all... considering I was late for my orals!! Could you believe, by the time I got to the room... the teacher was WAITING since I was the LAST one to take the exam... or everyone else just went on ahead. Ugh~ I'm just glad that my teacher waited for me... or do I have to thank Yano-dude after I pleaded with him to talk to my prof. Ha~ Thanks Yano-dude!! ^_^ Unbelievable circumstances + Unbelievable grade... I love you Corpse Bride!! (Nickname for our emaciated-looking but VERY VERY considerate sci10 prof) ^_^ Yay for A!! ;)

SURPRISE #4: YOU. Yes, you. You and our very enlightening talks.

I didn't know so much pressure and stress-induced quarrels could lead to such fruitful conversations. Thank you for the advice and counsel... I needed them. Goodluck to both of us for our finals. :)

P.S.
**Right now, it doesn't matter (that much) that I messed up my psy101 exam because I didn't want to study psych~ It's done. All I have to do is take my Philo100 Orals and it's HELLO SEM BREAK!! Yay!! I can almost tastd VACATION!! Now... back to the stoics... Descartes... hrmm...

*NERD MODE [Philo]*

:: Friday the 13th, and I'm HATING it. ::

2006-10-13T23:36:00.000-07:00

FINALLY, a little room to breathe... been so friggin' busy with all my pre-final requirements that I haven't had time for anything else.

I hate Friday the 13th... Hay...

Stress + Bleeding toe due to a pedicure gone wrong + fatigue and uncalled for quarrels...

HAAAAAAAAY... Stress is eating all of us up,

I need a break--- seriously.

FINALS NALANG--- wow, parang ang dali. Hmmm... no As this Semester,

oh well~ bad trip though.

My only stress relief: SNES Emulator

*Currently playing: Chrono Trigger*

Tsk. Gotta get a decent grade for Psych... but I don't study in Psych~

paano ba yan? Pati Philo100... major ko nga,

di ko naman makuha. Hay.

Sana matapos na ito... pagod na talaga ako.

:: Hell-Heaven-Hell ::

2006-10-07T23:57:00.000-07:00

I'll just make this post quick since I'm already uber sleepy... (._.)

I haven't been able to post these past 1-2 weeks because I have been (and still currently in) HELL MODE in school. Acads. Reports. Long Tests. Projects. Blah. Blah. Blah.

I'm in HELL.

but HEAVEN just came along--- we had our Judo Finals today~ and our team won over-all champion!! Yay!! GO MEAN MACHINES!! ^__^ *Loving my Judo Block :)*

Oh~ and I also won the gold for my division!! Yay!! :) Yano-dude also got a gold!! ^^

Super Fun!! :)

Me, Yano-dude, George, and the IPPON sign!! haha!! :)

Smile for the GOLD!! :D

GO MEAN MACHINES!!

Huwell... it's back to hell for me--- last wave of overwhelming requirements then it's FINALS week. Goodluck to me.

Goodluck to all of us who are going to take the finals soon. ^_^

*Kaya yan!! I-IPPON MO LANG!!* Haha~ Loving you all the more Judo!! :)

:: Redemption ::

2006-09-24T19:24:00.000-07:00

"I own the world!!"

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"hn."

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"Your world at least. *grin*"

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"hn. *smile*"

:: Random Post ::

2006-09-24T18:53:00.000-07:00

I'm not really a basketball fan... but I just heard it from my dad a couple of minutes ago~ so:

for winning against UST in the finals!! :) Wee!! :P

ALSO~

It's inappropriate to say that I'm going through hell week right now, because I've been in HELL these past 2 months. However, starting tomorrow... I'll be entering the infamous:

So... Okay~ I'm procrastinating now haha!! :P

GTG, *Nerd Mode* Nyaaaaaaaar~!! (O-O) Gotta Pass Gotta Pass!!

:: Emo Warning: ON ::

2006-09-22T23:33:00.000-07:00

Cried today. Yahoo.

*PuFfY EyEs* O_O

Hay Pia, when will you learn that you can't keep on crying about things that are inevitable...

especially things YOU KNOW are inevitable.

Tama na... tahan na...

think about it, maybe it's time to give this up.

:: Falling in Love With You... ::

2006-09-19T18:20:00.000-07:00

Haaaaaay... after four months of playing around~ I think I am starting to fall for you.

Even if it hurts... especially during the first two months~ but now I've gotten used to it, it only hurts when it gets really rough between us.

It's quite hard to commit... you need so much time and effort~ I don't know if I can manage it, especially when I have my academics to think about.

But for you... maybe I'll just have to learn to push myself harder just to be able to spend time with you~ because I think...

that I'm falling in love with you... my dear, dear, dear...

JUDO.

HAHA!! :P

*Cheers to a hundred more great IPPONS!! :)*

:: I Miss Dancing for Fun :( ::

2006-09-17T21:23:00.000-07:00

:: I Miss Dancing ::

It's been waaaaaaaay too long since me and any of my friends have gone out dancing just for fun. So sad that our only opportunity in eons was wasted... Haaaay~ Oh well. :(

Dance with me... will you?

:: HAPPY BIRTHDAY RETARD!! :) ::

2006-09-16T19:34:00.000-07:00

**RETARD!!**

I uber miss our high school days!! Next time UBE tayo with the rest of the Merk Shack!! :)

**MiSsInG HS MeRkShAcK DaYs**

:: We Lab You Shobewan :) ::

2006-09-15T00:25:00.000-07:00

This post is waaaaaaay overdue... Oh well!! ^^;; Considering I have a long test this same morning which I've been reading for uhmmm... a lot of hours~ I consider this post a good break. :)

--- Shobewan during her debut celebration!! :) Wee!! (September 10, 2006; Hyatt Hotel) We love you Shobewan. :)

--- Ready, Set, SMILE!! :D The gang in formal attire (with me looking like a pig stuffed in a gown x_x)!!

This is just a quick post... so you guys can just go here: **MoRe of ShObE's DeBuT PiCs**

:: Loving September 08 ::

2006-09-09T23:44:00.000-07:00

Wee!! Last September 08, 2006 (Friday)--- 2 very special events took place.

1. Shobewan's 18th birthday!! ^__^ Wee~ Happy Birthday Shobewan!! :) *Hug*

--- Shobewan's cake!! Strawberry Mousse with a white star smack in the middle. Courtesy of Me, Dongkee, Yano-dude, and Tita Tin. :)

2. San Jose Invitational Dinner!! 3rd time in a row!! Super fun!! ^.^
--- Me and my Seminary Homies: Jepoy, Dongkee, Pards, Jimmy Boy, and Papa Benny!! :) *points* I have a picture with the Rector, Fr. Vic too!! :P

--- Wah!! I just couldn't resist putting this one up!! Haha!! :P Me with Bro Jordy!! ^__^;;

**More Sem Dinner Pics!!**

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Extra lang... :P

--- Baby Arwen!! :) My "ampon" kitty in school... just like Doggie!! ^_^v

**Aww... Thank you September. You're making it easier for me to love you~ really. :)

Another Month... I Give You SEPTEMBER.

2006-09-05T20:25:00.000-07:00

FINALLY... I have even a little time to breathe.

August has come and gone just like that--- I barely noticed it up until it was September all of a sudden!! Even with September sneaking up on me like that, I hadn't had the time to blog even for the first day of the FIRST BER MONTH OF THE YEAR!! Gahd... speaking of BER months, it DOES NOT feel like September yet~ it's been friggin' hot for the last 3 days. *Sigh*

Anyway, I just wanted to post some important events that have kept me for the past month.

*My Controversial Bruise*

Let me explain this picture: (btw, the bruise was on my upper left arm o_O;;)

1. The day after...

2. My 3-day old bruise~

3. Ang SUKDULAN NG SAKIT x_x;;

4. Recovering somewhat...

5. My Sailormoon tatoo :P

6. A second, minor bruise on my right arm o_o

**Haha~ at least I had something to start an instant conversation... though it always had to start with: "OMG PIA, ANO YAN??! ANO NANGYARI DYAN??!" Haha!! ^^;;

*Nikki Castro*

Our new blockmate, Nikki Castro died last September 04, 2006 due to Leukemia... and though I haven't had the chance to get to know him more, I knew him well enough to say that he is one of the strongest people I've known. A true example of a person who has imbibed MAGIS into his life, and a person who always has time to help everyone.

Please be happy in heaven Nikki~ you will be missed. *cries* Thank you for letting me meet you, now I know how it is to be touched by an angel. :)

*Acads. Acads. Acads.*

I know, I know--- I already promised to NOT rant about my academics anymore, and I am keeping that promise!! I just want to point out my rather stressful hell-week/month schedule which has eaten up all of my spare time and non-spare time by gluing me inside my room with only books and readings to keep me company.

*Sci10 LT (Last Wednesday)---messed this up.

*Psy101 LT (Last Friday)---uhhh...

*Ph100 Oral Midterms (September 04)---messed this up.

*Hi18 LT (Septermber 05)---*no comment*

*Ph148 Novel: Waiting for Godot (September 06)---just about to start reading

*Sci10 Reporting on the Emergence of Life (September 08)---haven't opened the book yet!!

basta... LABAN LANG!! LABAN!! LABAN!! LABAN!! *RAWWWWR!!*

(I have 1.5 months to get my act together... kaya yan ;p)

*ACIL*NSTP*AREA*KIDS*

Honestly, I can't remember a time when I was welcomed more warmly than I have been for the past I don't know how many Saturdays that I've gone to Consti for my NSTP. I've been so drawn to every area day with a (not anymore secret) anticipation to teach the kids. It's very different now than what I used to experience last year, mainly because I can move better now since I'm no longer a 'noob.' Haha. It just feels great to have someone (or a lot of someones) look forward to having you there, waiting for you to teach them lessons, and showing their appreciation for you with the simplest of things. *Happy* I'll scan one of their artworks one of these days--- nakakapagpataba talaga ng puso. I love you ACIL!! :)

**September, we've started on such an exhausting note--- but I'm happier now, happier than I've ever been for these past 2 months. :) Thank you.

I have a new life ahead of me...

2006-08-25T21:45:00.000-07:00

I know I've been ranting about my academics since July started... and have failed to update except when I feel like ranting all the more about my grades. At this point however, I have decided to live by what my dad told me:

"What's done is done. Don't bother yourself with things which you cannot change; do your best to change the things that you can."

Even though I've been tempted the whole day to rant... NO MORE. No more academic ranting from now on. :) I've decided to throw all my past frustrations these last 2 months and start a new life. It's TABULA RASA for me.

I have less than 2 months to catch up; I can make it. I can make it. I can make it. I HAVE TO MAKE IT.

August--- please let me love you.

::Somebody Just SHOOT ME NOW::

2006-08-10T22:44:00.000-07:00

Ten days into August and I've realized that if I didn't like July very much, then I must REALLY HATE August. Everything is just FALLING apart this past week... Hay...

1. I failed my Psy101 quiz--- to think I was going for a B+-A standing, I can be bitter about it--- but it won't change anything.

2. I made a crummy fool out of my History 18 Long Test... goodbye B+-A... I want to burn the whole world because of it--- but it won't change anything.

3. I f*cked up my Fil14 Long Test pretty much in the same way I f*cked up my History Longtest... I can cuss all I want about it--- but it won't change anything.

4. History 18 professor threatening to drop us because we couldn't run from the Blue Eagle Gym to Berchman's hall in 10-15 minutes.

5. Dumb rumor about the execution of all cats in the Ateneo campus... good thing we were able to talk to the admin about it.

6. Hospital vigil--- I hate the hospital.

Hay... August, why must we start on such a wrong foot?

:: PLEASE SAVE THE KITTIES!! ::

2006-08-09T00:05:00.000-07:00

PLEASE SAVE THE KITTIES!!

Due to the growing numbers of the cats in the Ateneo (and an accident involving a cat biting a student), there will be an extermination squad to execute ALL THE CATS IN THE ATENEO CAMPUS.

Execution date is on Friday, August 11, '06.

Method[s]: BB gun or drowning.

**Please help save the Ateneo kitties... ADOPT a Kitty Today. Or better yet~ come with us to the Paws Animal Rehabilitation Center (PARC) and ask them to house the kitties instead of letting them be executed with these BARBARIC and INHUMANE methods.

**PARC is located at the back of the Ateneo de Manila University, on the highest portion of a hilly 5,000 sqm. MERALCO property in Katipunan Valley, Loyola Heights, Quezon City.

**Office Hours is from 9am to 5pm, Monday to Saturday.

Please don't let the kitties die--- HELP SAVE THEM!!

Kitties have the right to live and be happy too... don't be selfish. :(

::HAPPY 2ND ANNIVERSARY!!::

2006-08-01T19:16:00.000-07:00

HAPPY 2ND ANNIVERSARY BLOGGIE!!

Wee... 2 years and still going strong!! :)

Here's a four-leaf clover for our future!! ^_^

Meow!!

::Consumed.::

2006-07-31T22:29:00.000-07:00

We have no classes today, thanks to the Feastday of St. Ignatius (THANK YOU for giving me time to breathe!!), and though I should be happy--- I barely am. Why? It's mainly because I feel so tired... so frustrated... so angry... so consumed that I don't know what I want to do anymore. I don't know if I want to go forward, to go back, or to just sit down and let the world wash over me and hopefully drown me with it. I'm lost and spent~ I'm scared... I feel like I have nowhere to go.

Philo 100 has drained me of my wits and patience. I hate the way Dr. Garcia pretends to teach... I hate the idea that I have to wake up at 5 am so I can get to his 7:30 class and realize after each session that I haven't learned anything of any academic value from him. I want his teaching assistant back!! He's just too--- sucked up in his own DEAN-ness to understand that we're sophomores... and that we're tired of his levitating his own bench!!

Philo 148 has drained me of my strength and mental capacity to defend what I believe in. I have answers, but can't explain them--- that makes me a loser to whoever can explain their point better than me (and believe me, there are many in my class who can do so easily). It's knowing what you believe in, then having your professor smash it to bits and challenge you to put it back together in front of him--- I can't do that... I find it so difficult to do so. I want to~ but I somehow get lost in the process--- I think I would prefer to shut up and simply listen during my 148 class so I can actually learn something. I love philosophy. Philosophy is hard. Philo 148 is killing me. I need help.

What freaking frustrates me to bits is the fact that I slave over our philo148 readings the whole week (sacrificing other subjects in the process because I haven't enough time) and then receiving such horribly poor results that make me feel as if I've slaved over for ABSOLUTELY NOTHING. Add to it the fact that my other subjects which are quite A-able or at least I think I would be able to get a fairly high grade are pulled down with it in the process. It bugs me to know that I know my lessons but I 'lose it' due to fatigue, lack of sleep, exhaustion, or simple information overload. I love philosophy. It kills my other grades. I like good grades. Low grades hurt me. LOVE HURTS.

History 18 long test hates me. or I hate it. or I hate my philo148 for what it did for my hi18 long test. I love history. I hate my longtest grade. I could've done better--- if Nietzsche didn't butt in. I could've done better if I hadn't fallen asleep--- because Nietzsche had to butt in. I love history. I love philosophy. My philosophy killed my history. What should I do?

I'm in a slump... I'm pretty much lost and I don't know if I want to be found. I just want to cry... cry and cry and cry and cry and drown in my own tears. I want to make it all go away... somebody make it all just go away.

I want my Totoro...

Runaway with me on this lazy rainy day. :(

::Haaaaaaaaay July!!::

2006-07-29T22:50:00.000-07:00

Gahd... this has got to be my worst blogging month ever!! I've written only 3 entries for the entire month of July... and it's a school month~ which makes the fact even weirder!! @_@ Hmmm, but I think I know pretty well why I haven't updated much this month.

Reason #1: Typing a blog entry [for me] takes up a lot of time and mental effort.

**Time and mental effort which I do not have... or do not have any to spare due to the so-many-inches-to-count-thick readings for both History 18 and Philo 148. This past week has been hell because my Hi18 longtest just had to be on THURSDAY... the day RIGHT AFTER my Philo148 class. What's so horrible about that? We had to read so many friggin' Nietzsche readings which we had a quiz on on Friday!! (and considering I already had a 0 quiz... I had to study for it!!) So that evening I got home a 11 pm because my class was up to 9 pm... then I FELL ASLEEP!! That means... I didn't get to study for my Hi18 longtest yehey for me!! So all that time was wasted... all that reading and everything because I messed up my history longtest. Not only did I mix my information up--- I also FORGOT to answer the SUPER GIVE AWAY BONUS QUESTION. So well~ I think you guys can pretty much FEEL MY UTMOST FRUSTRATION!!

READ STUPID MISTAKE: "Who was known as the 9 or 13 day queen?" Answer: Lady JANE Grey MY ANSWER: Lady JEAN GRAY--- damn!! Let's go X-Men!!

Reason #2: Nothing to blog about but academic rants and frustrations.

**Enough said in the last reason I think... I think that the guys who frequently read my blog are (a) pretty much fed up with me ranting about my acads/grades for the past 1.5 years of blogging (b) having fun reading my rants and knowing that I'm suffering in hell (c) weirded out by the fact that I actually do"care" about my grades or (d) have nothing else better to do. Haaaay. JULY oh JULY!! Why do you have to be such a pushing month for me??! I'm not used to this kind of work--- I'm not used to these kinds of mistakes--- I'm not used to having these kinds of grades!! CRAP ASS HISTORY LONGTEST!! ALL MY EFFORT WAS PUT TO WASTE!! Hay... I was aiming for a B+ or so... but now I'll pretty much get around a C... that pisses me off... it has been pissing me off for the past two days.

Reason #3: I'm lazy.

**Reasons can't get any simpler than that. Yup, I'm lazy... even with all the class suspensions I still didn't blog because I didn't want to think and type unnecessarily because I'm a lazy bum haha. :P Plus the fact that all those class suspensions were only spent by reading Nietzsche, European History, and (oh~) watching free movies with my sister Flory!! Wahaha!! Can we get any more lazier than that??! And yeah... you can also thank that for THAT *points at first 2 reasons* Hooray hooray!!

So... GOODBYE JULY!! I didn't like you very much.

**At least we don't have classes on the 31st. HAPPY FEASTDAY ST. IGNATIUS!! =)

:: Rainy Day Update!! ::

2006-07-13T14:51:00.000-07:00

Hay... happy day~ no classes!! ^__^ No classes tomorrow too [
http://www.abs-cbnnews.com/storypage.aspx?StoryId=30803] --- meaning~ NO PSYCH101 LONG TEST!! Yehey!! ^__^ Honestly, I've been really lazy recently--- refusing to read and study when I have the time to do so... then regretting after taking my quiz because I know I could've done better. A perfect example of this event happened yesterday. I was feeling extraordinarily lazy so I decided to just come in late for Psych101 (I felt I was being a good student too because I didn't decide to cut altogether!!), reassuring myself that she wouldn't give a quiz the meeting before our longtest. So I came in more than about 15 minutes late... only to learn that we were having a quiz on THE BRAIN--- which (apparently) is a topic I have NOT retained anything about, because I haven't bothered to go over my notes and review. So... I was lucky enough to get to class before the quiz started--- but not lucky enough to have sufficient time to stuff everything about the brain to get a decent score. Pfffft... grrr~ It's the nth time I've screwed up a quiz/requirement--- one was my first ph148 quiz then it was my first ph100 reflection paper!! That event with the reflection paper was just soooo wrong in so many levels!! It sucks big time all the more since I'm supposedly a PHILOSOPHY major... and I'm failing EFFING (F in F*C#) Philo!! Hay... it frustrates me to bits!!

Yeah I know... it's my fault!! I haven't pulled myself together yet~ so my academics are going haywire. I have to get a grip and get going... Play time is over--- it's time to get my braincells in tip top shape!!

ANYWAY, before I start ranting again about my academics (which happens to be my favorite cup of tea recently), I want to get to the happier side of my life!! ^__^ In contrast to the first paragraph, I'm having quite a happy time in school. Haha!! :) I attribute it to a lot of things... some things more special than others~ but with that--- I won't elaborate anymore. :p Hmmm... I think I'll just blog about the random things that have made me happy recently. ^_^ Madali naman ako matuwa~ Sabi nga nila "mababaw ang kaligayahan" ko... haha!! So true!! It doesn't take much of anything to make me laugh or smile!! :P

**This humongous Icecream from Shakey's Icecream bar in Katipunan!! Yano-dude and Dongkee made it... and there were only 4 of us who ate it!! Well... 3 actually, Cla (Yano-dude's Girlfriend :P) didn't eat much. (._.) Gahd!! Bring on the calories!! But it was fun... and it made me happy. :P

**My new glasses!! Wee~ (O-O).v.. I lost my last pair... but I don't think I'll be losing this pair because I've grown extremely fond of them. I got them yesterday and I've been wearing them practically the whole day haha. ;)

**Tisay's Kitties!! Tisay (Chuva's cat) gave birth to 4 kittens... 2 of which I finally got around 3 days I got for Smoncho boy (Tita Tin's boyfriend). I got a really perky pair, one black one and one white one. ^__^ Awww~ they were so cute I nearly changed my mind about giving them away!! :P Plus the fact that I already have 6 adorable but not so small kitties here at home. ^__^ Meow~ I'm glad that Smoncho is taking good care of them... I have to ask what their names are. Haha. :)

And though I'm tempted to post even more pictures... I guess I'll save that for my multiply account. Haha~ too many people are complaining about my blog's slow loading. :P Well~ I guess I'll just enjoy my day and indulge in some not so well deserved rest and relaxation. :P Wee... Mameesh Kat's birthday on Saturday~ I still haven't got anything to wear. (o.o)

:: HeLLo JuLy!! ::

2006-07-01T17:59:00.000-07:00

:: H e L L o J u L y ! ! ::

Hahaha... I'm just procrastinating really~ I haven't done much of anything~ considering I have to finish a TON of stuff for Monday. Pfft... we have our first reflection paper due for Philo 100--- about what? Can't say much... I haven't learned MUCH is such an understatement~because I think I haven't learned anything relevant yet except for all the ising--- Like "the grass is grassING... the tree is treeING" and all the things BEING what they are. Don't make me explain right now~ it will take forever--- literally. Philosophy takes forever... I know. It's not a bad thing~ It's just hard to comprehend more often than not.

Anyway, after I write this entry I'm going to go back to reading The Brother's Karamazov~ and I won't rant here anymore about what happened last week (because it's only going to make me all over again). Grrr... I should be done by Tuesday so I can study booknotes on Wednesday~ I need to get my grades up. Philo 148 is one subject which I have absolutely NO ASSURANCE that I will pass. Oh joy~

If you're unbelievably bored... please feel free to go visit my other forms of online procrastination!! ^_^

My Recently Updated Multiply Account!!

My Recently Updated Friendster Account!!

Hahaha~ I think I've done enough procrastination for today... I should've started reading 5 hours ago!! ::sheesh:: I really have to make up for lost time if I want to come up with a decent paper for philo 100 + I have to study for my Psych 101 quiz on Monday too. Haaaaaay...

:: Nerd Mode :: Please DO NOT DISTURB ::

10 of Life's Greatest Pleasures

2006-06-23T22:33:00.000-07:00

I'm bored out of my wits... and I can't find the book required for my Philo 148 class on wednesday. Hay... got this from Cheenee's blog~ para naman matuwa ako ng onti. o_o

10 of Life's Greatest Pleasures Instructions: Name ten(10) of life's simple pleasures that you like the most, then pick ten(10) people to do the same. Try to be original and creative and not to use things that someone else has already used.

**In no particular order ;)**

1. The color green--- and rainbows (yeah you got that right RAINBOWS!!) Green has been my favorite color as long as I can remember, and it still is. GREEN is not just a color, it is a way of life!! ^__^ Rainbows because I find their color combination really "cheery" and "happy-looking" and I'm all for that right now haha!! =)

2. Candy--- the easiest way to ask for forgiveness from me, couple it with a nice fat bag of candy!! ^__^ Aw~ hard candy please... especially lollipops!! I adore lollipops!! :)

3. Strawberry Icecream and Blueberry Cheesecake--- I haven't eaten any other flavor of icecream since forever except strawberry!! Silly as it sounds, I guess I keep it up because I've forgotten what the other flavors taste like. ^^;; The only real thing which I prefer above strawberry anything is Blueberry Cheesecake~ a culinary wonder!! =)

4. Chuck Taylors--- I'm a chuck-head I must admit. Haha!! Even before the hype started I've been crazy over their assorted colors and prints~ I'm all for randomness and colorrrr... hahaha... plus they make a very fascinating collection. They cost too much though, that's why only my mom buys them for me. ^^;;

5. Friends and Family--- what can I say? Without them, I wouldn't be who I am or where I am today. Foundation my dear--- the word is FOUNDATION baby. ;)

6. Classical Music and my violin--- who would not fall in love with the music of Paganini, Vivaldi, Bach, Mozart~~ Who wouldn't??! I am in love with classical music~~ which is also the reason why I am studying playing the violin. ^__^ I may not be as good as the masters, but I am on the path to attaining a very very wonderful dream... =)

7. Dancing--- so unlike me, and still so like me~ weird!! @_@ I only admitted this recently~ since God knows that no one in high school would swear to seeing me move an inch of my hips the whole time I was in St. Scho HS. Haha~ but I realized and (finally) admitted to myself recently that I do enjoy dancing... =P

8. Literature and the Arts--- one of my passions~ I have used writing and drawing as an outlet of my emotions ever since I was a child. I am thankful for God for giving me this gift... for helping me nourish it~ teaching me how to help others with it. Also, BOOKS have been my companion since forever!! From Bible Friends to The Vampire Chronicles~ my love for books has not wavered... and never shall. ^_^

9. Technology and Innovation--- I love computers, digicams, consoles, cars!! Basically all things bright and beautiful in the new world of technology!! It's like opening the box of your newest MP3 player... digging into the styro beans, peeling away the bubble wrap and smelling that CRISP, Plastic-y smell of INNOVATION. Haha!! =P

10. =) <<>

-- First Sophomore Week!! --

2006-06-22T19:46:00.000-07:00

WEEEEEEEE~!! It has been 4 days since I officially started going back to school!! So many new things--- but most of all GAHD--- THERE ARE WAAAAAY TO MANY FRESHIES FOR TASTE!! x_x;; They're practically CRAWLING all over the Ateneo it's creepy!! Plus the fact that they're invading the caf like a million honey bees--- ergh!! Anyway, that's not really very important is it? haha. =P

We have around 5 new blockmates in AB Philosophy this year--- unfortunately, I only know 3 of them~ One of which I really have a certain disdain for right now. SORRY!! So early in the year and I'm already shooting one of my own blockmates... how evil. x_x;; Much has changed since last year, we're pretty much more independent of each other I suppose. I'm not saying we're not as close anymore~ we're even closer now I think... but we aren't classmates anymore in a lot of subjects. Aw gahd~ I feel like our load is really getting heavier since we have REAL REAL subjects now. Real subjects such as Introduction to Philosophy, Science and Society, Introduction to Psychology, European History, Panitikan ng Pilipinas... and of course, THE PROBLEM OF GOD IN EXISTENTIAL LITERATURE. Ugh... unfamiliar, UNCHARTED territory!! I'm not sure if I can handle all these new things, especially the last one [Ph148] because of all the taxing readings (read: 700+ page novel/week) on top of my other required readings for other subjects--- plus the fact that the class is from 6-9 in the evening!! x_x;; To think I have to go to school at 7:30 am for my first class--- it's a cataclysmic crisis... but I've just decided earlier today that I will NOT go through load revision. It's a brave move... I'm just not sure if I can live up to what I just did. Hay~ I hope I do without sacrificing my grades.

Mameesh Kat is determined to get a minor in English Literature I think so she isn't in many of my subjects--- I think she's my classmate in only one class. Same goes for Tita Tin and Shobewan~ I'm just glad I'm with Yano-dude and Dongkee for most of my classes (including JUDO!! Gahd... what the hell did I just get into??!) @_@ As for me... I don't know if I do want to get a minor~ correction, it's not about "wanting" because I do WANT to minor in something--- it's the question of "can I do it?" or "do I have the time and effort to achieve it?" Right now I think I'm just wanting it for the sake--- I can't study as hard as many of my blockmates--- God knows I'm hellishly lazy and that I simply LOVE to procrastinate... which makes me very unlikely to excel in anything if I even attempt to minor. Though I'm lazy and all that, I try my best not to be mediocre~ I'll study when I really need it... try really hard to excel in my subjects~ and if I'm lucky, I might get into the Dean's List again. It's fun to get into the DL, and I want to do it again--- though quite honestly, it's not on the top of my priority list.

So what is on top of my priority list? I don't know right now really... but I'm pretty sure orgwork for ACIL is a big big big candidate for the number one spot. ^_^ I don't know why, but since I joined this org, I've had the biggest "leaps of excitement" for the simplest things. I used to be bored to death with whatever I was assigned to do--- or sick of debating in the Ateneo Debate Society~ but with ACIL--- it was different!! It was like KKK all over again. ^_^ ACIL is where I found a sense of fulfillment... of real joy in knowing that I made even the smallest difference in the lives of the kids that we help. (SO EMO HAHA!! :P) Anyway, I plan to do even better this year~ muwahahaha!! ;) I even joined ACIL for my NSTP~ hahaha... taxing yes~ but I think it's going to be all worth it. ^_^

As for goals this semester--- I have no clear cut goals yet too... hahaha, as I've said a thousand times over: I am NOT a goal-oriented person. I do not have specific goals which I try to move mountains just to accomplish. Sure I have the basic "I want to pass--- excel would be good too" goal... but nothing out of the box like "Become an officer--- be more socially oriented blah blah"... I can't do that~ I don't even think like that!! x_x;; The only thing I'm actually mulling over right now is how I'm going to do well in Philo 148 with all those creepishly long readings... which I don't even have books of yet!! Hay...

Anyway~ much has been said about my thoughts on my first semester as a college sophomore~ I hope I do well--- pray for me. ^_^

*The keyword is: M A G I S . . . baby!! ;)

3-Point Entry

2006-06-17T23:27:00.000-07:00

I'm a tad too sleepy to write... but I'll just write down three points that made today--- a relatively happy day for me. =)

Point #1: C A R S ! !

Another uber cute Pixar movie!! ^__^ Awww~ and it's jam-packed with one of my favorite things--- cars!! ^^ Cute animation+funny stuff+Cars= Happy me!! =) I recommend you guys to go and watch it!! Wee!! ^__^ The characters are all cars~ and the script is pleasantly funny--- nothing too heavy, but nothing too shallow either... perfect for a happy, light-hearted film. :) Oh... Happy~ that reminds me!! I still have to collect CARS Happy Meals before they phase them out!! T__T Wah~ I hope I'm not too late to get my Sally, Dr. Hudson, and Lightning!!

Point #2: K A C H I N G ! !

The problem with me receiving money from my dad then going to the mall--- is that I tend to burn up said money in buying everything I've been eyeing during my last visit. Ergh~ and YES--- it happened again today... I burnt up my dad's money!! Haha~ I have a new fascination this season--- for me, it's all about SHINY things!! *.* As Kitty KatKat puts it: "Bling Blingssss." She's right though~ I've been buying studded barettes, hairbands, charms, etc. etc. for the past ionno how many weeks. @_@ I'm happy today though~ even if I didn't get to buy another car for my collection. I did get a playboy bunny keychain, a turquoise lady bug ring, playboy bunny shoe laces, a new studded hairband, etc. etc. Goodness, I really should control my impulsive buying~ I'm practically in POVERTY even before the schoolyear starts!! x_x;; Oh well~ lesson learned: Luho doesn't come cheap. Haha for me!!

Point #3: Actually...

Actually... I can't think of a third point. I just wanted to emphasize how much I enjoyed watching CARS and shopping for BLINGS. Haha!! ;) Okay... I'm not making much sense now, so I'll just go back to YM-ing. With that, I'll leave you with... uhmmm... I can't think of anything right now--- I'm too sleepy. Maybe I'll think of one tomorrow. *Yawn*

The Ultimate Frustration

2006-06-16T20:49:00.000-07:00

MY ULTIMATE FRUSTRATION

Hahaha... I was just bored to bits when I got home from school... so I started watching some Shakira videos. (FYI: I am a hardcore Shakira fan haha =P) Goodness--- watching her videos reminded me how my own hips feel like they're weighed down by concrete blocks!! T__T How does she do it??! It's as if her hips are aliveeeee!! Like her body has a mind of its own!! @_@ Simply... AMAZING. Haaaaay... and her gyrating and undulating hips remain one of my greatest frustrations to date!!

Anyhoo~ here's another Shakira video. This time it's my favorite Shakira Song: La Tortura. Yes, it is in Spanish--- from her album: Fijacion Oral Volume 1 (Orax Fixation Volume 1). Haha!! ^_^ I just feel like sharing... I miss playing dance maniax with Merkie and the peepssss... haaaay~ I haven't been to any clubs for the past 4-5 months~ so well, I miss dancing I guess. ^^;; Oh well... hanggang panood nalang muna.

WATCH LA TORTURA!! ^^

BEERDAY!! BEERDAY!! :D

2006-06-14T12:15:00.000-07:00

It's the morning after one of the best birthday celebrations I've ever had!! ^_^ It was great to have the people I lurve from both St. Scho and the Ateneo together~ haha... twice the fun!! :D I can't blog all the details--- partially because I feel lazy, but also because details would just make the whole thing boring!! I did take some pictures~ mainly for blackmailing purposes--- but today I'll make an exception. Haha!! ;)

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I would just like to thank the following people for coming to my party--- ^_^

*Yano-dude (grabe... salamat sobra!!) *Merkie (I lab you my twin!!) *Chuva (salamat superrrrrr!! ^^) *Dongkee *Tita Tin *Tiny *Itay Enteng *Jepoy *Smoncho and *Cheenee-san

UUUUUUUUBER THANKS FOR COMING and for making last night unforgettable!! :) Special mention for Chuva--- who sacrificed coming to my house in her uniform. To Merks who has an accounting quiz today but prioritized me over it. :) To Yano-dude who did all the texting and contacting of people even if he pays his own bill now--- because I'm a poor individual. To Jepoy-- who said he was stayin in the seminary XD but commuted all the way to my house. To Dongkee, who still managed to come to my house and go home in one piece. Hay basta, special kayong lahat sakin!! :D

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Anyway, here are a few pictures from last night--- the rest have been uploaded to my multiply site. ^_^ [ http://moonworshipper.multiply.com ]

^_^ Jepoy*Yano-dude*Cheenee-san*ME*Dongkee*Enteng ^_^

*Smoncho-boy and Tita Tin*

^^ Me and Chuva-choo ^^

Hehehe... yan lang masasabi koh!! ;)

SORRY!! Di ko talaga maresist yung temptation na gawin ito!! PISH!! ^_^v

**Love note to Merkie: Sorry, hanap ako magandang picture natin kagabi--- yung hotdog pic lang meron sa digicam koh eh!! ^^;; baka maharass masyado mga tao kung yun nilagay ko dito haha!! Update ko nalang... meron ata ako sa phone. =)

Eto... Para sa inyong lahat!!

Happy Birthday to MEEEE!!

2006-06-11T23:59:00.000-07:00

ME!!

Hahaha... conceited!!

Naw... actually I just want to redeem this seemingly gloomy day~ which (unfortunately) is also my birthday. o_O;; Weird story... maybe I'll rant about it in some other post--- I want to sound happy in this one. Hehehe. ^_^

PROUD TO BE...

For the Good Gift Givers!! ^_^

2006-06-06T21:26:00.000-07:00

This post is for the KIND-HEARTED PEOPLE who want to be GOOD GIFT GIVERS this coming JUNE 11. (Haha~ uber emphasized statement ba? =P) Hahaha... hey~ you can't blame a kid for trying to impose a wish list right? Haha. ^_^;; I'm just *hoping* since I want to add more to my growing collection. ^_^ Wee~ *poke* *poke* ;) Ok... eto na!! (Pakapalan nalang ng mukha :P)

*Nissan Skyline GTR R34*

[preferred color: BLUE]

*****

*Lexus SC430*

[preferred color: BLACK]

*****

Actually... there are a TON of these kinds of models which I want to wish for... so if you want to see more of my longed-for goods~ you can visit them here: http://www.kinsmart.com/sc_webcat/ecat/product_browse_list.php?lang=1&cat=1 Haha!! ^^ btw, I go for the 2 doors for now... so my collection can have some "order." You can check them out at your nearest toy store!! :P Wee... I'm also looking for a NEW BEETLE in its original APPLE GREEN color, so if you see one--- TELL ME... or better yet, BUY IT FOR ME!! Muahahaha!! >:)

Anyway, that's all... I actually got tempted to post this because of two major reasons. One: because me and Kitty KatKat went to the mall last Saturday and I spotted a Skyline but it was yellow--- I want a BLUE one. We also spotted a Lexus in black--- but I bought a blue Dodge Viper first with the two racing stripes on it!! :P I bought it first because it reminded me of my favorite Gran Turismo car. ^_^;; Hay... PS1 memories. Two: Because my birthday is coming up and the idea of gifts still remains SACRED in my near-adult mind. Hahaha!! Anyhoo... I'll end this entry here before I post even more pictures!! ;)

BE NICE!! >:)

Nakaw Kay Papa Bodeee =P

2006-06-04T18:20:00.000-07:00

Ninakaw ku lang ito sa blog ni Papa Bodeee... kakatuwa eh!! ^^;;

Can you name 21 people right off the top of your head? Don't read the questions underneath until you write the names of all 21 people. Don't change the names you've written once you start answering the questions. Ready, start!!

Hahaha... in some weird... no real order (except sa una siyempre ^^)~ here we go!! =)

1. Merkie Bebeh 2. Chuva Choo 3. Yano-dude 4. DongKee 5. Papa Bodeee 6. Retard 7. Jepoy 8. Shobewan 9. Tita Tin 10. Tiny 11. Billy Boy Baboy 12. Manoy Boy 13. Flory 14. KatKat 15. Aphrodite 16. Jay 17. Benny 18. Jimmy Boy 19. Sir Mina <3 20. Pards 21. Sir Teng? ;)

THE QUESTIONS:

1. How did you meet 14? Hahaha... magkaklase kami nung grade 4 ata yun, siya yung pasaway na assistant captain ball na ayaw sumunod sakin!! :P
2. What would you do if you never met 6? Aw my golly... ibang-iba ang buhay ko ngayon!! Di ko kaya ma-imagine buong HS life ko na wala si Retard... mahal na mahal ko yan!! ^^
3. What would you do if 20 and 9 dated? Pards + Tita Tin??! o_O;; Gahd... impossible... lagot kay Smoncho si Pards haha!! =P
4. Did you ever like 5? In a Papa Bodeee-ish sort of way. ;)
5. Would 4 and 12 make a good couple? Dongkee + Manoy Boy??! XD BAGAY HAHA!!
6. Describe 8: Suuuuuuuper bait at maalagain. ^^ Matalino at may alagang takure!! =P muahahaha!!
7. Do you think 13 is attractive? Siguro... ewan... ate ko yan eh. -_-;;
8. Tell me something about 17: Kalaguyo siya ni Jimmy Boy!! :P
9. Do you know any of 4's family members? Ay... hahaha!! Uu, buong immediate family!! Kaso meron kaming history ng mga babae dun. ^^;;
10. What's 21's favorite color? Aw... di ku lam eh... di ko natanong!! ;)
11. What would you do if 18 just confessed that he/she liked you? STRESS!! hahaha... kay Benny na yun eh!! :P
12. What language does 20 speak? Basta... English, Tagalog, at kung ano man dialect nila sa Dagupan. XD
13. Who is 9 going out with? Kay Smoncho lang... 11 months na sila eh. ^__^
14. What grade is 16 in? Di ko alam if nag-aaral na uli eh +_+
15. When was the last time you talked to 13? Last week bago siya pumuntang Boracay.
16. What is 2's favorite band? Di ko alam yung ngayon eh ^_^;; Noon Spongecola.
17. Would you ever date 7? I could... but that would be like dating my brother. XD Dota nalang!!
18. Would you ever date 12? Kambal ng kuya ko yan, malamang hindi!! He's family!! ^^;;
19. Is 15 single? Yeah I think so.
20. What is 19's last name? MINAAAAAAAAAAAA <3<3<3
21. Would you ever want to be in a serious relationship with 11? Kuya ko yan eh... -_-;; NO!!
22. What school does 3 go to? Ateneo siyempre... BBB ko yan dun eh. ^__^
23. Where does 15 live? Noon sa Paranaque... ngayon di ko sure...
24. What's your favorite thing about 10? LRT sessions!! ;)
25. Have you seen 1 naked? Gahd NO... at wala akong balak makita haha!! :P

Katuwa!! Grabe, yung iba talaga sakto pa yung tanong eh!! Lalo na yung isa... *siko* *siko* :P Fun siya though!! TRY NIYO!! TRY NIYO!! ^__^

AT LAAAAAAASSSST!!

2006-06-02T18:15:00.000-07:00

After six grueling weeks of summer classes... I AM FINALLY FREE!! Yesssss!! Hahaha... Last May 31 I took the LAST MATH EXAM OF MY LIFE!! Gahd... thank you!! If all goes well, I'd be able to bag that C+ I'm aiming for. (haha, I can't dream of getting a B in math ^^;;) Summer's almost over though, so I don't think I felt much of a summer vacation this year--- not that I had any time for one anyway. Anyway, let's skip all the school stuff and move over to what I plan to do with what's left of my summer vacation.

Well, me and Billy are finally getting enrolled into a driving school!! Yehey!! :D Open road here I come~ ^_^ I think I have enough time to learn and practice since school doesn't start till June 19... that's a good 2 weeks++ for me to practice.

and... IT'S JUNE!! JUNE!! JUNE!! My birthday is coming up!! YEHEEEEEEEEEEEY!! ^__^ Wee~ I haven't been this psyched about having a birthday since uhm... 2-3 years ago!! =P MARK THE 11TH DAY OF THIS MONTH YOU GUYS!! hahaha... *floods GIFT GIFT GIFT GIFT here* :)

Wah... due to such a long absence from blogging--- I feel lazy to blog about everything that happened between my last entry and today. @_@ Hahaha... :P Anyway, I'd like to thank SHOBEWAN, TITA TIN, and DONGKEE for a wonderful summer with you guys in school!! DOMOU ARIGATOU GOZAIMASHITA MINA-SAN!! AYABYUUUUUH SUPER!! :D I hope to get a copy of Sir's final exam... first time masama ang picture ko sa isang final exam noh haha!! ;)

And lastly… for Yano-dude!! Hahaha!! CONGRATZ!! I’m so happy for you!! ^^;; GIVE ME A 2 and ANOTHER 2 and what do we have??! 22!! 22!! 22!! *siko* *siko* Alam ko kung bakit 22!! ;) Beeeeeh!! =P Wah!! Pare Labyuh!! Tsaka please lang… alagaan mo yung TOE mo… @_@ Hahaha!! Pa-kiss mo kay… wakokoko. Tama na, baka magulpi mo na ako eh. ^_^

Well… that’s all I have to say for now--- this rainy weather makes me sooooooo sleepy. I just want to curl up and cuddle!! ^.^ *Yawn* Maybe I’ll take a nap first before I go play dota again. Haha~ DotA madness!! DOTA DOTA DOTA DOTA!! ^__^ Practice Practice Practice, but for now… meme mode first. ^^;;

..::Inferioriy Syndrome::..

2006-05-24T00:08:00.000-07:00

I have been out of cyberspace for the past kopong-kopong centuries due to schoolwork... and simply the lack of inner drive to actually blog about the things that have been happening. So what HAS been happening exactly? Nothing much to speak of... except that [#1] I'M FAILING MATH!! (Yes yes... AGAIN. Don't you think I know that already!!) [#2] I'm infected with INFERIORITY SYNDROME. Why? Well... many reasons... mainly because I simply suck at math and I don't seem to be putting sufficient effort into studying it (knowing full well that it is my waterloo) that's why I always end up being at the bottom of the form. What pisses me (somewhat) is the idea that I study sooooooo hard (in my standards anyway) and still get such a mediocre grade compared to someone (or most of the time, mostly ANYONE) who didn't study nearly as much. x_x;;

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I know... I know... I sound like I'm sour-graping at the fact that other people are smarter than me--- and YES, I admit to sometimes feeling that way IN ANY OTHER SUBJECT because I have come to terms with myself that I am no math genius. However, these past few days I've been wallowing in semi-self pity at the fact that no matter how hard I try to study--- I'M STILL FAILING!! And it's only in this subject that I actually have to undergo test after test after test knowing that I'll still get a mediocre grade knowing that I actually STUDIED. *sigh*

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I should get over it--- summer classes are almost over, I should at least be glad right? Hay... I just can't get over the fact that I feel dumber than everybody else... @_@ It sucks... BIG TIME!! I'm probably going to get a D if not an F in math--- So I can just kiss my goal of getting into the Dean's List next sem goodbye... Hopefully I pass my last Ma12 long test and finals~ that's going to be my only consolation I guess. *SIGH* Oh well... Jap quiz tomorrow... I need to study since I failed the last one. Why? Because I didn't have the copy of the vocabulary words for our VOCABULARY quiz. *pffffffft* This week bites... x_x;;

..::First Week Report::..

2006-05-01T14:07:00.000-07:00

One week into Summer class, and I swear~ I think I'm just about ready to go back to being a bum!! @_@ I expected summer classes to go by QUITE fast... not THIS fast!! It's as if they're cramming lesson after lesson after lesson into our heads!! (x_x) Jap is fun though... I really enjoy Sensei Jun's class (domo arigatou gozaimasu jun-san desu!!) Hahaha. :D Math is okay I suppose... (Wee~!! I got Sir Mina's class *wee!!* ^^) I just had the misfortune of coming down with a cold during our first longtest. T_T Need I say... I scored a loser grade for that... *sob* Waaaah... I feel so bad about it too. I guess I'll just have to do better on my coming LT on Thursday THIS WEEK!! (>,<) I'm just glad that my other blockmates are here to help me out. ^_^ Wee~ thanks guys!! :)

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I can read hiragana now... and talk with it a bit. Hahaha!! Konnichiwa Minasan... Watashi wa Pia desu, Juroku sai desu. Ateneo de Manila daigaku no, daigakusei desu. Dozo Yoroshiku!! ^^ Ahahaha!! :) You guys are just gonna have to find out what that means on your own!! =P Summer hasn't been all that bad~ Nabigla lang siguro ako kaya ako nagkasakit!! x_x;; There are a lot of PROs about going to summer class though too... One of which is I wouldn't be rotting here at home. :D Another would be me being with some of my blockmates (uber bonding with Shobe, Dongkee, and Tita Tin!! ^^) Huwee... Happy!! =) I miss some of our other blockmates though... this is for Tiny: OI GAGU BAKIT DI KA NAGSUMMER... BUMBAY KA AMP!! HAHA!! =P Joke lang~ miss lang kita dude!! ;) Ang ating mga LRT stories on love, life, and everything in between, haha. Mameesh Kat, I miss your Mameesh-iness!! Imma see you guys soon hopefully, bisita kayo sa school!! =P

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BTW, YANO-DUDE'S HOME!! Wee!! He just got home yesterday, and I got to talk to him via YM!! Hahaha!! Grabe, kaka-miss sobra!! It feels like I was reunited with a part of my brain~ XD We did so much catching up, seems like we were separated for eons!! hahaha!! ;) Still gonna beat him up for not going to summer class though and for not getting his grades!! *sapak!!* Anyway, he's going to visit us in school on Tuesday (hope he shaved... he told me he hasn't shaved in around a month!! goodness... I really don't want to see that x_x)... Wee!! :) Looking forward to seeing you Yano-dude... maligo ka nga at mag-ahit!! =P That'll be an uber good surprise for Shobewan and the others. ^__^

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Well... I've been out off the cyber world for the past week, mainly because of school. I haven't been doing much except for this cycle: Go to school-->Go home-->Take a nap-->Study-->Go to sleep (repeat 1000000x). (@_@) Oh well, I guess that's part of summer. Wee~ I'm taking up driving lessons this month with Billy... Huwee!! ^__^ Happy days!! Especially since our mom has already allowed us to drive our black car... :) Muahahaha!! ^__^ **giddy!!** Okiesh... now I have to get back to studying my Katakana--- quiz on it tomorrow!! Wah, back to school!! I hope to get to update soon. ^_^ Ja! Mata ne Minasan!! =)

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Btw... HAPPY LABOR DAY!! :D and oh... BELATED HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY TO MY BELOVED TWIN: MERKIE!! Wahahaha LEGAL KA NA!! PWEDE KA NANG MAKULONG!! Wee~!! Muchos Lurve!! <3

..::Going Back to School??!::..

2006-04-17T22:18:00.000-07:00

I just got my grades today... I can say I was pretty surprised (not to mention uber happy) with the results!! ^__^ Wee~ I GOT INTO THE DEAN'S LIST!! *jumps around in glee* ^^ Sorry, it's my first time to get into the DL~ so I still feel uber psyched!! ;) I'm glad my parents were proud (except for a few "Paano itong mga C+ moh?" and "Are C+s ok?") hehehe... but that's typical parent thinking~ not to mention that I got bugged with my C+s too. o_O;; I'm just thankful that one of them is only for ES Lab (1 unit subject) so it didn't affect my semestral QPI much--- for the other one~ can't say I'm TOO disappointed... it's not everyday that I get a C+ in MATH hahaha!! ;) *remembers her W aka F for math11 last sem* Yep~ definitely BETTER (thanks to Tita Agnette and SIR TIMOTHY ROBIN TENG!! AYABYUH!!) ahahaha!! Teacher crushes are definitely GOOD for my math grade wahahaha!! =P Well... here' the break down of my grades... *hee happy mode ^.^*
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Second Semester Grades

Lit14: Introduction to Poetry--- A [Thank you uber much ELMO!! BEST LIT PROF EVER!!^^]

Eng12: Communication in English II--- B+ [Damn!! Sir Acuna... MIRACLE!! Not that I'm complaining though ^.^]

Fil12: Pakikipagtalastasan sa Filipino II--- B+ [I hate you IceCream pa rin, pero sige~ pish na tayo :P]

ES10: Introduction to Environmental Science (Lec)--- B+ [Huhuhu, A na sana... :'(]

ES12: Introduction to Environmental Science (Lab)--- C+ [Amp!! Di kasi ako nagsusubmit eh... AYOKO NA MAGSALA NG LUPA!!]

Math11: Basta... Math11--- C+ [Muahahaha!! I SURVIVED!! :D]

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Well... there they are. ^__^ Wee~ barely made it to the DL... but getting there was such a pleasnt surprise. =) However, there's bad news too... A few of my blockmates are in danger of not being able to "make it" next school year... and it sucks!! There are only a handful of us and now we're gonna be even lesser!! T__T Wah~!! *Noooooo...* Gahd... WHY??! Not that I haven't thought of transferring schools myself though.. Hee, I'm actually contemplating on going for VetMed. :) (I'm serious, and anyone who has something against it can just shoot themselves in the head) ^_^

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Ergh~ tomorrow I have to go to school again to register--- then same thing on the 19th... UGH!! I feel so sluggish... Iowanna move!! But I have to get used to it... I'm going to go back to school!! The day I start going to school, is the official end of my summer vacation!! Summer classes take 6 weeks... so that'll reach till the end of May... then June, so that's the start of regular classes. *sigh* Goodbye long days of RAN playing and lounging about--- HELLO MATH12, FOREIGN LANG, and DRIVING LESSONS!! Woohoo!! Yehey... FINALLY!! ^__^

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Mamee just allowed me and Billy to use our black car [Exalta]... Wee!! ^.^ I'm uber excited... I'm finally going to be able to drive!! Hee... well that's one thing I'm really excited about. :) At least my summer's going to be more productive... that's my top priority right now. Hay... I just hope I do ok in my math this sem...

I still have this horrible headache... I think I've had too much excitement for one day... haha!! Looking forward to new stuff!! ^^

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..::Summer Update!!::..

2006-04-11T03:52:00.000-07:00

Well... my summer is nearing it's untimely end (I have summer classes @_@)~ but I'm proud to say I've done more than just sit on my bum all day and play RAN online hahaha!! [see figure 1.1] ;) Though that was really tempting to do--- if I hadn't been dragged along to Bicol last weekend!! (>.<) The trip turned out to be a pleasant and well-needed break for me~ I came back to Makati feeling rejuvenated!! ^_^

Figure 1.1: RAN Online Archer: Cessy!! (the name came from Billy... `nuff said)

The Bicol trip was fun... especially the 2nd day we were there, because we went swimming in Mam Purog!! [See figure 1.2] ^__^ It's this really fast-running river with really REALLY cold water!! It hasn't changed since we went swimming there eversince we were little kids!! :) Awww... Everytime I see this pic, it makes me want to go back and have a good, long dip!! (>_<) Especially with this unbelievable HEAT in the city!! (x_x) Ergh... heat is probably what I really hate about summer!!

Figure 1.2: Nica, JB, Billy, and ME in Mam Purog!! ^.^

Anyway, we visited my departed Grandmother and Grandfather in the cemetery during our last day [See Figure 1.3] (after Palm Sunday Mass... which had a 45 minute gospel in Bicolano/Tagalog!!), said our prayers and petitions then we packed up and left for Makati. It was a good trip... and I think it did me well to have gone there last weekend. :) Huwell... Holy Week is coming and it's gonna call for some sacrifices. No PC, no TV (except for Holy shows), etc. I guess it'll be fine~ I need some time to gather my thoughts and contemplate on a lot of things to clear my head before school starts. :)

Figure 1.3: Family + Relatives in our Grandparents' Mausoleum during our last day in Bicol.

That about sums it up... btw, I watched The Phantom of the Opera this afternoon... cried again!! Hahaha... that phantom never fails to make me cry during the ending parts!! Watching that made me feel all EMO-riffic the whole night... but it was really a very, very good movie. :) Well, it's nearly 4:00 in the morning!! I think I should be getting some sleep!! (x_x) Hahaha!! Happy Holy Week Minna-san!! ^__^

Bored Much? Uh... Yes indeed.

2006-03-30T23:48:00.000-08:00

Watched ULTRAVIOLET at GB3 today... I expected it to be like Kill Bill-ish or Aeon Flux-y or Resident Evil-ish... but it wasn't. Sure it had it's fair share of more than amusing action scenes... Violet doing all those stunts in her tight, color-changing outfit--- with her ever-changing hair color~ but the real thing about that movie was that it was EMO. Not cheesy emo... just really deep... heart-wrenching... mind-boggling type of EMO that left me in a daze... and which still has me in a daze actually--- right now when I come to think about it. These are the words which really got under my skin... Violet said this:

"These things, no matter how beautiful they are... it's evil when they're gone."

Whatever... haha... I'm in the middle of a whacko conversation turned EMO-riffic. Hahaha...

Emo... Emo... Emo... Amp.

..::Summer-iffic Scandals!!::..

2006-03-30T23:08:00.000-08:00

Huwell... I'm pretty much into what little summer vacation I have, and I must admit quite a lot has already happened before I even updated!! :) Hee... So let me write a re-cap of what happened since the last day of classes... which was a Thursday (March 09, 2006) wherein we had to go to school to submit our Fil ARP PERSONALLY to a prof who DIDN'T EVEN FRIGGIN' SHOW!! WTF??! Anyway... the following day, people from my HS barkada [namely: Merks, Retard, Chuva, Nene] and their blockmate Joyce went over to my place so that we could go to Sheene's debut together. The theme was smart-casual Black and White... so well... there's a pic to show you how we looked! ;)

Let's go Dance Troop!! Woohoo!! ^o^ [L-R: Joyce, Nene, Me, Merks, and Retard]

Ooooookay... With Chuva and without Merks this time!! =P

Moving on~ we weren't able to stay very long at Sheene's party--- so we were back at home around 11:00 pm or so. Joyce went home already, and me and the Merkshack peeps started talking and reminiscing our high school antics. Gahd~ I missed you guys soooooooo much!! As in SUUUUUUUPER DUUUUUUUPER!! *Huggy!!* ^__^ We made up for lost time by updating each other about our current College existence~ which well... apparently has been both not very alluring~ but quite packed with new experiences--- not to mention lessons which seemed to have learned too early into college life. It's just funny, because I feel like it was only a short while back when I graduated from HS--- and now here I am, summer vacation before going into Sophomore year in the Ateneo (well~ Summer classes are part of it too :P). Time flies when you're having fun--- or when you're up to your head (and past it) with STRESS whether academic or otherwise... though I'd choose academic stress anytime. Ergh. As for that part of my life--- well, it's under wraps I suppose... in the mean time.

Anyway, the following day we had an INUMAN PARTY!! The first one I have ever sponsored at home~ so we planned it extra carefully. =P So Merks, Retard, Nene, Chuva were there... and Eggy, Kitty, Kat Yam, and Dongkee, and Tiny were added to the mix!! Hahaha~ the more the merrier!! ^__^ Too bad Yano-dude and Tita Tin couldn't make it. :( Anyhow, we drank a few beers [Read: Red Horse ;)] and then went on to play our modified version of "I've Never" with a bottle of Tequila and a bottle of Vodka. ^__^ Needless to say... people got wasted **siko siko kay Tiny**and did a lot of things which are too incriminating to say! (Though I am highly tempted to post the pictures here >:P) But it was a whole lot of fun... with Tiny being wasted, Eggy being really BOLD, Kat knotting cherry stems like crazy, and Dongkee looking like a crab--- it was a night worth remembering!! ^__^ Especially with the more than incriminating pictures which I shamelessly ripped off from Retard's multiply account--- wahahaha!! =P I lab you Retard!! **hearts!!** Here are a few pictures... for the more *JUICY* ones... you can check out my multiply account: http://moonworshipper07.multiply.com. :)

This is what they became... after barely a bottle of beer!! EGAHD!! x_X;;

Yep... well, you know where the drinks went... :)

Beer + Tequila + Vodka = Two Pairs of Eyebaggy Eyes hahaha!! ;)

Anyone out there who wants to donate to the SAVE THE CRABS campaign can call me!! =P

Hee... this entry is getting too long--- so just look at the other pics in my multiply account. ^_^ Bottomline of the whole entry? IT WAS A HELLUHFAHGOODTAAAAAAHHHHHHYMMM TO BE WITH YOU GUYS!! Yeahbah!! ^____^ Woohoo!! I hope we can get together again soon this summer... Weehee~ BRING ON THE SUN, FUN, AND THE ALCOHOL!! Wahahaha!! Looking forward to more scandals with you guys!! ;)

Uhm... well~ Sleeping Beauty mode... ^__^ In full battle gear haha!!

Tribute to Block J!!

2006-03-20T22:07:00.000-08:00

This is for my one and only Philo block in the Ateneo!!

For my Beloved Block J-mates:

THANK YOU FOR SUCH A WONDERFUL FRESHMAN YEAR!!

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Eto na... EMO-riffic dedications!! ^.^

To: YANO-DUDE

YANO-DUDE!! Of course you're NUMBER ONE!!^^ Yano is my closest friend in the Ateneo!! Thank you for all the support, encouragement, advice, and help you've given me throughout the year!! You have been one of the most driven people I have ever known (not to mention THE MOST STUDIOUS of all the guys I've known =p)... and I'm really thankful that I met you. ^_^ I'm uuuuuuuber thankful for all the bonding sessions and all the talks we had during the year. Wee~ I'm looking forward to three more years with you Yano-dude!! =) Just remember that I'll always be here for you too okiesh? ;)

To: Tiny [Shoti]

TINY!! Tiny has been my friend since my HS days in St. Scholastica's College Manila, but it was only this year that we actually got reaaaaaally close!! Thanks to the fact that we're blockmates, and we finally got to know each other's lives better. =) I'm glad that we were both able to clear up our issues with each other during high school, so now we're in a new page together!! I enjoyed this year all the more because of you Tiny~ I'm thankful to be in College with you. ;)

To: Dongkee

Dongkee... my male counterpart in Block J!! Yeah he's way over the term "green-minded" but there's more to him than meets the eye. Thank you Dongkee for always being there at the right time... I appreciate the vent sessions and all that. I'm glade to have met you Dongkee, and I'm glad that we got to be good friends before the year ended. ^_^ [Pahabol ba ang dating ng pagkakaibigan natin? ahahaha =p] Always remember: STUDY HARD and THINK 101% GREEN!! >;)

To: Shobewan

Shobewan!! (Shobe-one) The ever-caring, ever-loving Little Miss Sunshine of Block J!! ^__^ Shobewan always seems to be busy with ACIL or schoolwork, but never does she run out of time to lend a helping hand to any of us. ^__^ Thank you so much for all the pep-talks and the help you gave me. ;) Thank you for being such a good sister!! Lavyah Shobeeeeeewan!! ^^

To: Mameesh Kat and Franzy Boy

Mameesh Kat: HAS IT ALL!! Tissue? Ballpen? hahaha... that's why she earned the name "mameesh"--- you name it, she's got it!! ^^ Hee... though we never got really close~ I hope we do get to talk more in the next three years if ever we both survive!! ^^ Franzy Boy: Hehehe... just remember that when you ask this guy a question, his first answer is always FALSE. Hahaha!! Franz is an innately quiet guy, preferring to sleep rather than join the regular caf-banter of the rest of us~ but when he's absent--- we miss him!! Hoping to get to know you better Franzy-boy!! ;)

To: Tita Tin and Smoncho

TITA TIN!! One of the kindest people I've known (goes along with Shobewan =p). She's always there to cheer you up even if she doesn't mean to!! ;) Hahahaha... She also has a magic pencil case with EVERYTHING in it (i.e. scissors, stapler, etc.)--- absolutely MAGICAL!! XD Thank you for all the laugh trips and chikka sessions... hope we get closer next year!! ^^ Looking forward to more years with you Tita Tin!! ;) (P.S. Tita Tin is also the exclusive owner of SMONCHO... hehehe Mr. Furry Thong Boy who is considered as another honorary member of Block J :D)

To: THE REST OF BLOCK J

I don't have a whole block pic right now so I just placed this picture of the Seminarists from this semester's Seminary dinner... Anyway, Thank you for such a wonderful year!! ^__^ I had so much fun... and I learned so many new things. =) Thank you for the experiences which I will always remember... To Jimmy boy and Benny--- please remember: SAFE SEX!! Wahahaha... and to Jepoy: Don't forget to visit SENSEI--- he'll miss you~ and so will his thick, long, elastic, stick!! (wahahaha~ Sorry... inside joke!! =P)

Thank you BLOCK J for a freshie-year worth remembering!! ^__^ I LOVE YOU GUYS UUUUUBER MUCH!! Heehee... Looking forward to the next three years with you!! ;) ::WUB::

..:: Fantastic Weekend!! ::..

2006-03-13T10:34:00.000-08:00

..:: The Night Before ::..

OrSem Friends... Friends For Life!! <3 Karen, Me, and Chrissie ^.^

English Block R26 after our Lit14 Play!! Miss you guys!! <3

Block J people!! Dongkee, Yano-dude, and Me!! =) Moral support!! ^^

Soooooooper Special HS friends: Merks and Chuva!! <3<3 align="center">

GO CHUVA GO!! Wahahahaha!! Hinahalay ang Seminarista!! >:)

Yep... self-explanatory. ;)

..:: The Morning After ::..

Good morning world!! Me and Merks right after waking up!! ^_^

Mwaaaaaaaaaaaaah!! Me and Chuvaaaaaaaa!! <3>

**Detailed text to follow... too tired and lazy to type stuff right now ^_^;;**

[ ACIL-errifiiiiic Week!! :D ]

2006-03-05T13:11:00.000-08:00

Wheeeeeeeew... it's been aaaaaaaaaages since I last updated!! I've been hellishly busy with schoolwork this past week--- just when I though HeLL Month was over last February, the first week of March had another welcoming HeLL WeeK for me!! Though it wasn't quite as bad~ recently, I've been quite happy. ^^ I think I have my ever-loving Block J ::WuB:: and my happy new org ACIL :) for that. Uuuuugh... just cancelled a scheduled meeting for our Lit14 play production today, too tired... I need to recharge or I'm going to explode into a million pieces!! I need to rest because starting tomorrow I'm going to be literally DROWNING in school work... ugh~ (x_x)

Anyway, aside from all the schoolwork I've been gutting myself over~ it's been such an ACIL-errifiiiiiiic week!! ^__^ We had our last Formation Session [FS] last Wednesday, and had a great time playing charades and taking pictures, pictures, and more pictures!! ^__^

ACIL Peeps: (top; l-r) Jason, Eds, Ate Kat, Papa Bodeee, Shobewan, Nat (bottom; l-r) Ate D... Tiny, and ME :)

More ACIL Peeps!! (l-r): Jason, Bodeee, Kuya Arjay, Eds, Darmander, Aligs, Lolo Enteng, and Kuya Matts =)

Yeah... uhmmm... okay~

^_^ Tiny, Bodee, and Shobewan!! ^_^

**Visit my Multiply Site for more pics ^^**

Besides having our last FS this past week, we also had our LAST AREA ::sob::!! (T_T) I kinda felt sad because it seems that I haven't spent a lot of time with the kids we were teaching at ESCOPA... and I'm not really sure if I already made a difference in that short span of time. I was really touched though, by the fact that the kids in our area actually remember my name even if we don't see each other for one or two weeks!! It's also touching when they ask me "Ate, ba't wala ka nung Friday?" and stuff like that--- the little things that really made me feel so luuuuuuuuurved. :) Awwww... Imma really miss those kids~ even if they are unattentive at times... or they keep on trying to jump on my back~ but they're really a great bunch of diverse individuals I'd like to get to know better.

**Last area pics are still with Nat... I'll try to post some once I get them :)**

I hope I get to see them again next year. ^__^ (and I hope all the more that they remember who I am!!) Haaaayz... basta guys walang indianan!! Kitakitz sa ACIL next year ah? ;) ::WuB::

On Animal Rights, Cramming, and Mood Swings

2006-02-25T00:58:00.000-08:00

In contrast to my earlier entry, I wanted to write this entry down too because I feel like I'll go crazy if I keep thinking and dwelling on the stuff that have been plaguing my already mixed-up mind. First of all, my non-meat eating regime (except fish/seafood--- I need my protein o.o) is because I wanted to emphasize my being an animal rights activist. Okaaaay~ I know it will sound weird for all those who haven't heard it from me yet--- and yes I know it sounded weird to all the others whom I've already informed. A lot ask me why... I don't know~ I just felt like I wanted to quit the unnecessary meat--- It's not like I'm going to die without it. Plus the fact that I know I won't contribute to the slaughtering of pigs, cows, chickens, lambs, goats, etc.

Admittedly, I know it's a crazy and whacked-out idea... but I like it and I think I can stick with it, SO THERE. It also emphasizes my stand against poaching (die you fur and skin mongers!! ONLY ANIMALS SHOULD WEAR FUR and their OWN SKIN) and animal trafficking. I just read from this magazine that "CROC IS IN SEASON." The hell---- why would people slaughter such beautiful animals (I love crocs!! ^^) just to make belts and bags out of them??! That's a virtually stupid and self-absorbed thing to do--- as discovery channel puts it: WHEN THE BUYING STOPS, THE KILLING CAN TO. ^__^

Next on my list of mindless ranting would be: CRAMMING. I just read Papa Bodee's latest blog entry and I felt kind of guilty about it. He's fretting about cramming this 2ND SEMESTER while I've been cramming since the first sem I got into the Ateneo--- or even worse, I've been crammng since HIGHSCHOOL!! Damn... it makes me wonder if I'm such a slacker to a point that I've become one of those SLOTHS that I abhor so much when I get grouped up with them during group works. Ugh--- I just can't help it!! I'm such a procrastinator--- and many times this semester I've regretted more than I have celebrated over my grades!! Sure, considering grades--- I got better marks this semester... but that was all because of Math last semester--- this time it's all about WORK HABITS and God knows that's one of the things that I don't have!!

A lot of school requirements have piled up on me this month and admittedly, it's not all the teachers' faults--- the biggest fault is mine~ and my sucky study habits. I always had this idea of "so what? I can do that the night before... so I'll just put it off for a while~" till everything else just piles up one on top of another and I'm crushed underneath all the pressure. For heaven's sake---- I have two papers due for Fil on the 27th, which was originally assigned last last week--- and I haven't written a single word of it. I need to pass my FINAL ARP and I still haven't opened the document since last I submitted it, I didn't study for a unit test in ES10 and completely forgot to study for our longtest!! To think I'm aspiring for a B+ and be exempted from the finals!! The list can go on~ and after reading Bodee's entry, I feel like such a SLOTHY SLACKER!! Worst part is, if Bodee found himself awake--- I'm still asleep. Gahd~ what do I have to go through to make myself realize what kind of stupid and idle individual I am??!

Just a while ago, I was chatting with an HS friend of mine. The conversation revolved about me watching wrestling, her mom not wanting her to watch wrestling, her not being able to watch movies anymore, me being a movie hog... etc. etc. Point is this part:

Dyan: at least you still get to watch movies...

Dyan: ako either hw lang (asa...)/kain-tulog or uwi ng pque

Dyan: pfft.

viridianmoonworshipper: talagang pinipilit ko lang yan at the expense of many things

Dyan: hahahaha

viridianmoonworshipperr: lam mo naman ako... maraming luho

Dyan: buti ka nga eh... u can afford luho

Dyan: ako, kht dota, ndi na eh.

Ergh~ made me feel even more horrible about what I've been doing for the past I don't know how many months into the second sem!! Yeah I know I'm having a hellishly heavy month~ but I still get to watch movies at the expense of a lot of things--- a lot meaning mostly (if not all) my academics. "Maraming luho" ---this statement is so true I want to kill myself with it. I'm aware but I still go on as is~ I can't understand myself, I think I have the makings of a bum~ Damn.

Another point is... she said I could "afford luho" but in reality, I can't!! In terms of finances I'm practically POOR, in terms of its effects on my schoolwork~ I don't think I can afford anymore self-indulgence that cuts into my school time. Uh yeah, so I guess that calls for the removal of our drinking sessions... hmmm, uh-huh. I just drink to de-stress, cause I feel like I'm going to explode when I'm uber stressed and I don't get to drink. Problem is~ we're in hell month so we're practically SUPPOSED to be trying to drown ourselves in liquor--- but we're NOT... cause we're trying to be good citizens now. Problem again: Stress + No drinking = No de-stressing. That makes way for a very muddled, messed-up, pissed-off Feeng--- which I don't think anyone wants to be around with.

Recently I've had the WORST mood swings these past 2-3 months... and I scare myself with them!! I just can't understand a lot of things that have been going on in and around me--- and not getting hold of the situation makes me feel vulnerable~ and God knows how I hate that feeling. So naturally, I tend to clam up and try to mull things over on my own--- and well~ sometimes things can get messy when I'm too busy mulling over a lot of things at the same time I'm bothered with a lot of things that are happening outside my "clam shell." So KABOOM I go to whoever the unlucky person is--- making a whole mess of an already messy issue.

I dunno what's up with me right now... I think I need a good long break to get myself back on track. I have about a month left of school, and I don't know if whatever change I try to impose on myself would actually MEAN something at this point. Right now I don't think I want to care first... Damn... I think I need to fix my life!!

RAW LiVE TOUR!!

2006-02-24T23:46:00.000-08:00

WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO~!! I'm still uber ecstatic right now!! I came home a while ago after watching RAW LIVE ON TOUR at the Araneta Coliseum and it was soooooooo overwhelming to see the wrestlers LIVE!! Ahahaha... [WWE Fan warning switched ON] It has been a (nearly) life-long dream for me to actually see the WWE (then known as WWF) wrestlers live--- and it has been fulfilled!! *dances for joy* I'm very very VERY (x a million) grateful to Yano-dude who let me come with him to the event!! ^__^ *gives Yano-dude a COLOSSAL HUGGY* WOOOOOOOOOO~!! I'm still super pumped-up and psyched about what we just watched a while ago!! ^__^ I mean, who can blame me (except non-WWE fans)? After watching since the time when Steve Austin and the Rock were at their peak, Triple H wasn't fat yet, The Undertaker had a lot more hair and muscles--- It's practically a FANTASY MADE REAL!! ^__^ Too bad Stone Cold wasn't there anymore... or The Rock... Undertaker wasn't there too--- nor was Batista, but it was all worth it!! It was greeeeeeeeaaaaaaaat!! ^__^

Hmmm... didn't get to bring my camera though~ ergggh--- but Billy did get some (not to mention a few incriminating pictures =p) using his phone. They're not very good but still worth seeing!! ^__^ CAPTURED LIVE!! Woohoooooooooooo~!! ^__^ *Still has a smile plastered on her face* Oh man... hehehe ;) I'm just gonna post some of the pictures here... I can't help it!! Plus Multiply's busted again... geez!! @_@ Oh well... Weeee~ I'll be having sweet dreams tonight I think~ ^__^

Billy, Me, and my RAW LIVE TOUR ticket!! Oh yeah!!

MASTERLOCK!! Val Venis in a VERY tight spot!! ;)

Uh... yeah... what the hell did Viscera do to you??! XD

Who doesn't know THE NATURE BOY: RIC FLAIR??! WOOO!! ^^

This was the only decent pic I could get with Triple H in it... ERGH!! Oh yeah~ and the big hulk in the loincloth is Big Show--- who got his head smashed against the steel stairs with a steel chair!! ^o^

Who could not see JOHN CENA??! ^__^ The WWE Champion before his match with Edge!!

...and well~ We all know what happened in that fight didn't we? ;)

Ergh!! I'm still very psyched---- ^____^ Can't believe it!! I feel like I'm high or something ahahaha!! (Look what WWE does to me!!) What an unforgettable night!! ^__^ I'll be talking about this for weeks on end so WATCH OUT!!

Post MEGA Hell Week Report

2006-02-17T14:45:00.000-08:00

First of all, the reason I entitled this entry Post MEGA Hell Week Report is because this whole month has been literally HELL for me. So to differentiate this week with the other three weeks of February, I placed the word MEGA to emphasize that the past week has been the most HELLISH of them all!! Let me elaborate by reiterating what I had to go through the past week (as seen in my planner).

-Monday-

*Math11: Answer p.95: 68, 74
p.103: 16, 26
p. 109: 2, 14
*Lit14: Lit lecture [4:30-6:00]
Escaler Hall

-Tuesday-

*Fil12: Konseptong Papel
*ES12: Pre-Lab notebook
*PE101: Homework (Please see notebook)

-Wednesday-

*Lit14: LONG TEST!!

-Thursday-

*Fil12: Talambuhay [no less than 5 pages]
*PE101: 3 major organ systems of the body:
-define
-when they are used
(isama mo na pati yung previous tsaka yung dati)

-Friday-

*Math11: LONG TEST 3!!
*En12: Bring Process materials [short brown accordion type office envelope with garter; write first and last name with black marker on the upper right portion]
-->Finish ARP (add suggestions on matters of law and legislation)
Process Materials:
-Final Draft
-Final Proposal
-Research Materials
-Other Drafts (latest to earliest)
-Other Proposals (latest to earliest)

Well... that was for last week... I have another arsenal for this coming week--- it's hell week all over again!! I'm just thankful it's going to be the last week of hell month. By March I suppose we're just gonna have to worry about our finals and not much on the requirements that some professors never seem to run out of. *Rolls eyes at the thought of my current Fil12 teacher* She should rot in hell... urgh.

I'm just really glad to finally have time-off from all the work and sleepless nights... I've been to school devoid of 36 hours of sleep due to my english ARP (Argumentative Research Paper) which was supposed to be no less than 6000 words with at least 40 bibliographic entries... that excludes my 4-6 pages of tables I think~ Ugh!! I still have to submit the final paper on Monday--- like HELL!!

This break is well worth it--- though for some reason I feel kind of unproductive just sitting here, blogging--- no MS Word document open waiting to be type-written... no xerox copies... no MLA formats to worry about... not math book sprawled on the desk~ Somehow it all feels sooooooo weird. Ahahahaha~ nerd syndrome kicking in much? ; ) But I'm thankful for this break... I have to catch up on a few stuff. ^_^

P.S.
There's like a 95% chance that I'll be able to watch WWE LIVE at the Araneta Coliseum this coming Friday!! WOOHOO!! The ultimate end for an ultimate hell month!! [Weeee~!!] ^__^ Spell my mood as: UBER PSYCHED!! Nyahahaha!! :D

So Crazy in Luuuuurve~ ^.^

2006-02-16T13:56:00.000-08:00

It's kinda late for Valentine's Day but I still want to post this entry because I want the world to know the real reason why I had such a wonderful S.A.D. - S.n.C. [aka Single-Awareness Day for the Single but NOT in Circulation] this year. ^__^

^_^ My Loving Block J mates. ^_^

[L= Tiny and Shobewan, O= Tita Tin, V=Dongkee, and E= Yano-dude!!]

Also...

I'm feeling so Brokeback Mountain-y this morning... cause I just watched the movie Brokeback Mountain and all I can say is--- it made me cry buckets of tears!! (T_T) It was soooooo (read uber) touching... and the story was very well thought out. Yeah sure, it may not be the majority's cup of tea~ but the movie was an S-Class must-watch heart-wrenching film in my standards. It's rated R, so if you're not old enough to watch it in the movie house~ I'll be glad to have you come over to watch it here!! ; ) [Sorry, VCDs/DVDs of my favorite movies do not leave this house unless you are a very, very, very trusted person ^^] I must warn you though~ it can get a little depressing--- well actually, more like get REALLY depressing... but it's all worth it!! ^_^ Ahahaha... I better stop before I actually start endorsing the movie... and just for the record~ I can't resist putting this picture up!! ..v.(+_+).v..

(~-_-)~ Homophobes can just shoot me now!! ~(-_-~)

Affirmation

2006-02-07T20:04:00.000-08:00

Affirmation

by Savage Garden

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I believe the sun should never set upon an argument
I believe we place our happiness in other people's hands
I believe that junk food tastes so good because it's bad for you
I believe your parents did the best job they knew how to do
I believe that beauty magazines promote low self esteem
I believe I'm loved when I'm completely by myself alone

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I believe in Karma what you give is what you get returned
I believe you can't appreciate real love until you've been burned
I believe the grass is no more greener on the other side
I believe you don't know what you've got until you say goodbye

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I believe you can't control or choose your sexuality
I believe that trust is more important than monogamy
I believe your most attractive features are your heart and soul
I believe that family is worth more than money or gold

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I believe the struggle for financial freedom is unfair
I believe the only ones who disagree are millionaires

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I believe forgiveness is the key to your unhappiness
I believe that wedded bliss negates the need to be undressed
I believe that God does not endorse TV evangelists
I believe in love surviving death into eternity

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I believe in Karma what you give is what you get returned
I believe you can't appreciate real love until you've been burned
I believe the grass is no more greener on the other side
I believe you don't know what you've got until you say goodbye

+==========+

+ Mga Pagninilay... +

2006-02-07T19:39:00.000-08:00

Simula noong nakaraang linggo, marami-rami narin akong bagay na napagnilayan. Mga bagay ukol sa eskwela... mga walang katapusang papel... papel... papel... amputek~ hindi na natapos--- nakaka-asar na kung minsan!! Nakakawalang-gana na... umaga, hapon, gabi yung pesteng ARP [Argumentative Research Paper] nalang ang pinakakain ko sa aking utak~ walang biro si Acuna magpahirap... kahit ako gusto nang sumuko sa kanya.

Haaaaaaaay... napagnilayan ko rin ang mga bagay ukol sa aking mga ka-eskwela. Sila nalang ata ang tanging rason kung bakit ay ginaganahan pa akong pumasok kahit na patong patong na ang mga gawain. Hmmm... sila nalang ata ang nakakapagpatawa sakin lalo na kapag gustong-gusto ko nang sunugin si Acuna nang buhay... haaaaay~ mga tao ng Block J!! Mahal na mahal ko kayo!! <3<3

Naisip ko rin ang mga taong nag-aalala sa akin... dahil kung ano ano nang kalokohan ang ginagawa ko sa buhay ko noong nakaraang mga linggo. Nakakabato na kasi ang walang katapusang ARP--- kasabay pa nang kalokohan ni Cao-Sunga [alyas ICECREAM]... putek~ kalokohan naman yang Fil namin eh... wala akong natututunan--- kaasar na prof, matrabaho lang wala namang katuturan.

Kaka-miss si Yoli... kaka-miss ang mga masasayang ala-ala nung first sem. Pero ika nga, hindi lahat nagtatagal... syempre kailangang umabante nang hindi mangamote sa iisang lugar. Sabi nga ng forwarded quote sa akin ni Chuva [bakla, mahal kita!!]"If you don't GO AFTER what you want, you'll NEVER HAVE it... If you don't ASK, the answer will always be NO... If you don't STEP FORWARD, you're always going to be in the SAME PLACE."

Tama siya... nakakabagot ang pakiramdam na alam mong may kailangan kang gawin... pero hindi mo ginagawa. Hindi dahil hindi mo kaya, di mo lang ginagawa kasi "di mo lang trip" o "wala ka sa mood." Takteng kalokohan yan!! Uu alam koh--- nakaka asar nga eh... pero sige, pinaiibayo ko ba!! Tsk. Sabi nga sakin ng isang mabuting kaibigan, "Gusto kong tumakbo nang maraming kilometro... pero tinatamad akong tumayo." Ganun din ata ako ngayon~ rami kong gustong makamit--- pero di ako makapag-simula... bakit kaya?

Raming iniisip tungkol sa eskwela... nakakabaliw ang ARP~ no less than 6000 words daw... kulang pa ako~ haaaay. Pagod na utak koh eh... pigang-piga na~ nagkaka bangungot na nga ako na tungkol sa CHILD WORKERS, CHILD LABOR, at CHILD WORK. Nakakatakot na... sana matapos ko na ito.

Nagpapasalamat nalang ako sa mga mabubuti kong kaibigan [need ko pa ba kayong i-state? =P] na laging nandyan para sakin... kayo nalang ata bumubuhay sa akin sa mga panahong ito. =)

~Happy-Hearts-Month!!~

2006-02-01T23:29:00.000-08:00

It's February First!!

The first day of the Happy Hearts Month!!

^__^

This is for all those happy non-married couples, married couples, already there, not yet there, those who are not yet there--- but getting there, and of course those who are happily single whether Single but not in Circulation [SnC] or Single and Ready to Mingle [SrM].

^_^

Spread the Luuurve~

- Ang Sampung Kautusan ni Pia -

2006-01-31T01:15:00.000-08:00

Una: Tanggapin na masama akong tao dahil yun lang naman ang katotohanan.

Ikalawa: Laging kumain ng pulutan on or before mag-inuman para maiwasan ang malasing agad-agad. Tandaan lamang na malangis ang dapat kainin at hindi spaghetting pang birthday party ng bata.

Ikatlo: Huwag pilitin ang sarili na uminom ng hindi kaya nang hindi masukahan ang sarili at mga kasamang mag-inuman. Kung di mapigilan, maghanap kagad ng baldeng masusukahan.

Ika-apat: Laging uminom ng isang baldeng tubig kada tapos ng inuman upang maiwasan ang matinding amatz at pagsusuka sa susunod na araw.

Ika-lima: Samantalahin ang panahon na "feel" ko maging taya... minsan minsan lang mangyari yun.

Ika-anim: Pag badtrip ako, wag na akong sabayan... mas lalaki lang ang problema by five million times.

Ika-pito: Wag magyaya sa lakad nang walang pera, pulubi ako at walang pangtustos sa ganyan.

Ika-walo: Wag akong pilitin mag text at mag landline. Kung kailangan akong kausapin, mayroon namang cellphone na pantawag o YM.

Ika-siyam: Ayoko ng turok, kaya pag may sinasabi... wag makulit at wag paulit-ulit dahil maasar lang ako sayo at lalong di makikinig.

Ika-sampu: Mag-comment sa blog koh--- kasi... wala lang, wala akong masulat eh.

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Wala lang... natuwa lang ako sa kinwento ni Eggy eh... kaya gumawa rin ako ng akin. ^_^

--My "Agenda" for the Coming Week--

2006-01-21T01:00:00.000-08:00

I dunno, it's nearly 1:00 in the morning. I just decided to make this checklist for my upcoming week--- since I've been pretty much "floating" in terms of school recently. I have my math LT and midterms to thank for that--- plus my Lit Oral Midterms... but since I've just finished my math midterms earlier this evening--- I guess I should start focusing on some more serious academic matters and set decent goals for myself. God knows I've been f*cked up in the earlier part of my second sem--- just been through so much stuff... didn't think I could handle it, but I did!! Yeah!! Thank you to Eleanor Roosevelt's words of wisdom. Yeah~ I'm still standing... with more than just bull-headedness keeping me upright! ^__^

Anyway, for this week... I plan to accomplish the following things (in no specific order):

1. Write and submit my final proposal for English on Monday--- and I want to make it something worth a B at the very least. (I've slacked-off big time with my English requirements... deym!!)

2. Get a perfect score in my Lit quiz on Oedipus Rex on Monday.

3. Have a decent report for our Fil12 class on Tuesday.

4. Submit a well thought out and well-written autobiography for Fil12 on Thursday.

5. Excel in Environmental Science so I can get at least a B standing and be exempted from the finals.

6. Fix my plant care project... I haven't done a single entry at all.

7. Reduce procrastination. (This is gonna be really hard...)

8. Finish writing this never-ending chapter I've been trying to write.

9. Write a decent poem related to "Summer."

10. Study harder. (So cliche... but I have to do it!!)

Well... that's pretty much it for the coming week~ I hope I pull through. We'll be getting our advisory marks on Monday, I'm pretty sure I'll be getting a big, fat D for English. Crappy false information~ I want to whack my prof in the head with a stick!! Well, I have to get to work on my final proposal--- I want it to be at least B material so I can pull up my standing.

I've been so busy with my exams and midterms lately... I haven't had time for myself recently. I just want to rest a bit then go back to studying (o-o). Somehow, I want to be a nerd in ES--- wah~ so I admit, I like the subject. =P Mostly cause of my prof... I get challenged~ so I study... read up... and try to top my exams. Ahahaha~ healthy competition has always been my boost for studying. I feel inspired!! ^_^

I really do think I am inspired!! I've been focusing on my academics recently... and it feels great and rewarding somehow. ^__^ Though I still feel bad about procrastinating and waking up late last thursday... I wasn't able to study or read up for our long quiz in ES--- and I feel so bad and guilty about it. (x_X;;)

Anyway... that's it for now. I'm still working on my "17 things I should do this year" list (wahahaha~ I got jealous of Tiny's list so there)... I'll post it once I'm done with it. ^_^

Reasons...

2006-01-14T13:56:00.000-08:00

Just a poem I wrote during english class last week... hehehe. ^_^ Dedicated to Tiny~ I think we both know what it means. Ahahaha~ :D Ayabyuh Tiny!!

I hate the feeling of fighting a war

and realizing too late that the reason

I believed was worth fighting for,

isn't there anymore.

Reasons.

I am a soldier who puts down his gun and sits

in the middle of a battlefield.

Not knowing if I will be rescued,

not knowing if I will be shot in the head.

I don't even know if there is a war left to be fought.

-----

I haven't fallen, for there was now war.

I felt as if I've bled too much--- when I

haven't been shot.

Too much bloodshed--- blood in the form of

tears, though I haven't cried at all.

-----

I am resigned I suppose. I don't need

to fight this war. At some point I don't

think I want to anymore.

If there is a battle left to be fought, I'll tell you this:

I'll pick up my gun and start this war,

if I find my reason to believe

that this war would be

worth fighting for.

[ Happy New Year!! ^_^ ]

2006-01-03T19:45:00.000-08:00

A lot of people say that many things can happen overnight... it's true you know~ a lot of things can change over night--- and a whole lot more in a span of five days. I went to Baguio with my family from the 26th of December to the 1st of January... that left me two days to actually cram my preliminary draft for English. OH HAPPY DAY!! It wasn't all that bad though... I've finished my draft (though it's not actually done yet) and I think I'm more than ready to go back to school after a brain-shrinking vacation.

It's well past Christmas day... but I'd like to give you my version of the song Twelve Days of Christmas... but this time, there are only five days. Here goes...

On the first day after Christmas, my mind said to me... You just have to wait. It's alright to cry... just promise yourself that it would be the last time.

On the second day after Christmas, my mind said to me... There has got to be a way... it'll show--- eventually.

On the third day after Christmas, my mind said to me... It's better of this way... I'm better off this way.

On the fourth day after Christmas, my mind said to me... Time to face the music!! There's no turning back!!

On the fifth day after Christmas, my mind said to me... Smile... everything is going to turn out right. ^_^

And I stand in front of a mirror... a fine sheen of mist covering it's glass surface. I raise an index finger and write the words of Eleanor Roosevelt:

"You grow stronger with every moment by which you look fear in the face, and DO WHAT YOU THINK YOU CANNOT DO."

After that I look at myself in the mirror... and smile.

Many things can happen overnight.

Happy New Year Everyone!! ^_^

[ Maligayang Pasko!! ]

2005-12-25T17:28:00.000-08:00

*~MALIGAYANG*PASKO~*

I have not posted in AAAAAGEEEEES... I know... I know... I've just been very busy with a lot of things. Mostly things that concern school and other academic activities--- (nyahohoho~ Nerd??! o_O Maybe~ =P) and other miscellaneous over the counter social issues blah blah. Anyway, it's CHRISTMAS DAY and I just wanted to greet each and everyone of those who're gonna read this a MERRY, MERRY CHRISTMAS TO YOU AND YOUR FAMILY (Wow~ nangangampanya ako--- vote for meh!!) Hehehe!! ^_^

Well, I had a good christmas eve last night--- got lots of presents!! ^__^ Wee~ Presents! Presents! Presents!! Ahahaha!! I LOVE YOU ALL!! Thank you [x infinity * (x+1)]!! ^__^ Imma just tell you guys what I got... cause I'm feeling extra extra happy and unbelievably grateful to a lot of special people this christmas!! *HUGGY* ^^

1. A Sony Walkman Bean!! *squeals for joy* ^__^ That's one out of my christmas wish list... as well as my all year round wish list!! *Happeeeeeee!!* THANK YOU!! >:D< ^_^

2. A Sony Cyber-Shot DSC-S40!! *squeals again* ^__^ A 4.1 mega pixel digicam with all the basics!! It beats the Canon Powershot A400 (which is #1 on my wishlist) by far!! Thank you SANTA CLAUS!! :P

3. A Reader's Digest Classical Collection set of CDs!! *rolls over* Hee... ^__^ More classical music for meeeee!! I love classical music!! *pops CD into PC to be transferred to my bean ASAP* Santa Claus~~~ *squiggle*

4. A bunch of new clothes!! Yehey for me!! I have new clothes for school next year!! Ahahaha.. :D

5. A bunch of new FUNDERWEAR (underwear with cute prints :P) ahahaha!! I have the cutest set of new Funderwear!! I have a playboy bunny printed one!! XD Wee~ Fundahweeeeeeehrr... Nyar~ ^_^

6. A MAGIC WALLET!! (Kaso di raw rumarami yung pera... hehehe :P) Thanks Yano-dude!! Ang cute cute ^.^ Green pa... kahit nakabukas na siya nung binigay mo sakin!! *Joke!!* =P

Well... there we go... just the stuff I can remember right now... but I have gotten a lot... and I'm very, very grateful to everyone. ^__^

P.S.

~~> Sa lahat ng tao na di ko na-text o nareplyan nung pasko... SORRY!! Naubusan ako ng load... binulabog ko yung tindera pero binato niya ako ng Christmas Ham... Kaya ayun, di ako nakapag-text. Wahehehe... Ito nalang pambawi ko~ AYABYUH!! Amp... Hohoho... ^__^

Have a Merry Christmas everyone!! ^__^

**ChRiStMaSWiShLiSt**

2005-12-08T06:52:00.000-08:00

Weehee~ It's nearing Christmas (which is my favorite holiday of the year ^_^)!! Well, since I'm feeling really happy today for some reason... I decided to make myself a *~Christmas*Wish*List!!~* Well undeniably~ some of the stuff Imma ask for here are impossible to be given to me--- but... I guess that's why they call it a *WISH* list (puts more emphasis on the word "WISH" with a green pentel marker) there!! ;) Here goes:

1. A new cellphone... (nothing too expensive!!) A Nokia 6230 or 7610 would be fine. ^_^

2. A new watch... I miss my Old-New watch~ (T_T) Plus, I can't keep track of the time anymore! (@_@)

3. Any digi-cam that's compact (but not too expensive)... so I can be a free and happy shutterbug!! ^_^

4. A Derwent set of chalk pastel pencils... the big one~ I want to try a new medium. =)

5. A pair of PINK (Yep~ you heard that right) high-cut Chucks... or a pair of the Wonder woman sneakers!! =P

6. New clothes--- XD I think I'm getting tired of seeing myself in the same clothes for the past six months! XD

7. A silver ring... I don't know, I just want one!! ^_^

8. A nice pair of slippers--- like my hologramic Spongebob ones!! ^_^

9. New DVDs!! Give me DEEBEEDEESSSS!! I'm a movie freak~ so just feel free to give me pirated DVDs!! =P

10. An MP3 player (no, I don't want an i-pod)... just a cheap one where I can put a few songs into. ^_^

There~ that's basically the top ten items on my Christmas Wish List... well of course~ MONEY (=P) is an offer that is very much welcome!! ^_^ Ahahaha... I think this is about enough procrastination for tonight~ It's just that I've finished all my homework for tomorrow and Monday (>_<)--- I think I'll start on my Fil homework then... so as to achieve my NERD STANDING goal. Hehehe... Good day everyone!! ^_^

[ SHIT HAPPENS!! ]

2005-12-05T06:43:00.000-08:00

I went home tonight... and when I got down from the train station--- I was short of:

**700 pesos**

**a CeLLpHoNe**

**My relatively new Tommy Hilfiger watch...**

Okay... life just got better---- FUCK IT!!

SHIT HAPPENS!!

[ utterly confused. ]

2005-12-02T06:31:00.000-08:00

For the past... I don't know how many days, I've been in a daze... A daze which I can't seem to pull myself out of. I can't say I don't know why, because I know I do... and that's the worst part. I know what's wrong, but I can't do anything about it--- cause I think I've tried and done what I could... it's not my part I have to play anymore, I have to wait--- wait for something I'm not even certain would come. I just feel tired... so tired... I feel so heavy so that everytime I try to get up, it's such a chore--- such a burden. I feel like I've fallen into a chasm I can't seem to get out of... and I'm afraid to be stuck in that chasm... all alone, with no one to blame but myself. I've fallen many times before, in chasms deeper than any chasm could be... but none as deep as this--- none as treacherous... and none as painful a fall as this one... and I am at a loss.

I feel afraid... and helpless--- I don't know what to do or what to think. All I can do now is wait, and the wait is like hell upon my shoulders. I just want to wake up and realize that everything that has happened these past few days was just another nightmare... one of those phantoms that haunt whilst you sleep, and turn into memory once you wake. I want to hide beneath the covers and pretend that nothing has happened... nothing has changed--- how I wish everything was as easy as wishing for them--- and pretending that they were real.

I don't know what else to do... but sit, contemplate, and exorcise these feelings out of my system... perhaps by then I would be ready... perhaps by then I would be at peace--- with myself... and the things that are happening around me. *Places "Need a Huggy" sign on forehead* Has hell broken loose--- and has it taken away my happiness from me? Oh yes~ I know... "Spare me the EMO Pia!!" Well I won't... and I can't--- it's been balled up within me like some cataclysmic power forced into a small ball--- waiting to burst... and it did--- consuming my very being in the explosion.

I have no saving grace--- I don't know what else to do...

or where else to go...

All I have is the HERE and

the NOW...

and tomorrow,

if I do not fail to see the

morning light.

[ Snow!! ]

2005-12-01T07:56:00.000-08:00

It's December--- the last month of the year!! ^_^ It's nearing Christmas (my favorite celebration, more than my birthday even ;p)!! Wee~ I'm done wrapping my christmas presents, except for around two or so... but never-the-less I'm done! ^__^ I'm planning to treat myself to a few new books among other things---- if my budget allows me anyway~ haha XD So there... I just wanted to catch the first day of December with this entry ^_^ Hee. :D

P.S.
I watched Fellowship of the Ring yesterday and The Two Towers today... tomorrow it will be The Return of the King!! Ahahaha~ I missed Faramir and Aragorn and Haldir!! <3<3<3

P.P.S.
As for the entry title... I couldn't think of anything decent--- so there. Ahahaha!! (I think this is what happens if you watch too much LOTR XD)

*~*~*~HaPPy HoLiDaYs!!~*~*~*

[ Black & White ]

2005-11-28T20:28:00.000-08:00

New layout... yes, it is pretty dark--- and it's meant to be that way.

~If you want to look at it at a more optimistic way...

you can always think that it's a "Panda-Inspired" layout.

**Yeah right... but oh well~**

Imma change it back to the old one... maybe~

I'm saving it don't worry--- I haven't changed the cbox to remind myself

to do so... when this is over with.

Yah--- Erm... yeah, whatever.

[ bored... :D ]

2005-11-24T20:35:00.000-08:00

I finished up all my assignments yesterday... so I have tons of freetime today~ Yey me!! ^_^ Just finished taking a truckload of quizzes (as you can see) and wrapped 3 oddly shaped presents (which took a hellishly long time cause ionno how to wrap -_-;;)--- and well... that's that. :D I feel like it's a friday today... iowanna go to school tomorrow!! (T_T) I hope I get to watch the exorcism of Emily Rose tomorrow... hehehe... ^_^

*currently trying to amuse myself... XD*

A few results from the quizzes I took (and more proof of my boredom :P):

You are Dark Chocolate

You live your life with intensity, always going full force.
You push yourself (and others) to the limit... you want more than you can handle.
An extreme person, you challenge and inspire the world!

What Kind of Chocolate Are You?

You Are Fall!

Thoughtful
Expressive
Creative
Poetic
Smart

What Season Are You? Take This Quiz :-)

You Are Strawberry Ice Cream!

What Flavor Ice Cream Are You? Take This Quiz :-)

[ uh... procrastinating again... ]

2005-11-24T00:15:00.000-08:00

Your Element is Metal

Your power colors: white, gold, and silver

Your energy: contracting

Your season: fall

You are persistent (and maybe even a little bit stubborn).
If you see something you want, you go for it.
You have a lot of strength, and it's difficult to get you down.
Very logical, you tend to analyze everything going on in your life.

What Element Are You?

Ahahaha... I'm such a procrastinator!! To think I have to wake up at 5:00 AM this same morning!! Man... I should just finish my homework and go to Lala Land already!!

Btw~ this quizzie thing nearly got me completely figured out!! :D

+ Midnight Procrastination in Progress +

[ consumed. ]

2005-11-22T23:37:00.000-08:00

It's Tuesday night... and I have one more journal entry left to write for Fil12. I just want to get it done so I can go get a good night's rest~ right now, I'd actually pass as a cast member for Night of the Living Dead: Ateneo Chapter. I literally look like a zombie with my swollen eyes and eyebags with baby eyebags under them x_X;; Flory said so too~ ugh... I really must look like crap--- and I do FEEL like crap too. Not only am I suffering from lack of sleep due to academic requirements and truckloads of emotional stress, I have tonsilitis to top it all of... and I can't drink my antibiotics on time so I guess that just eradicates the chances that I'm going to get better soon. *digs hands into pockets* Just great~ I had one chance for my first schoolyear without getting sick--- and everything just falls on me... and all I want to do is cry... (T_T)

Cry... *sigh* that's what I've been doing for the past few days... crying to myself to sleep night after night... (or morning after morning) crying when I'm frustrated... crying to myself a lot more than I should allow myself to. Crap--- I feel like such a helpless, pathetic crybaby (T_T) Which I'm not so far from being right now... It's just all this stress and everything's that's been changing and happening~ it's like the world's closing in on poor little claustrophobic me. (>_<)

I'm so close to falling into depression... and I'm pulling everything I've got not to do so. It's like I can't control my emotions anymore, they're flying all over the place--- all I want to do is curl up in a fetal position and cry myself to sleep... that way maybe I'd have a good dream... a peaceful dream that doesn't involve any academic requirements or emotional turmoil. Well... we all want things~ and most of the time we don't get what we want--- and if we do, Lucky Us!! *sarcastic grin*

All I can do now is study... study... study... to get my mind off a lot of things. Too much has happened~ too much has changed~ I haven't caught up yet... and it's tearing me apart--- my head is throbbing like hell~ I want to shoot myself in the head. x_X;; I'm such a cowardly crybaby... live with it!! *digs hands into pockets and walks away*

[ boring Harry Potter 4 ]

2005-11-19T11:01:00.000-08:00

If you haven't watched Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire, you're not missing out on anything much~ it's just like the 2nd and the 3rd one--- a somewhat "flop" of an adaptation in my opinion. The trailer looked so much better than the movie~ (@_@) At least Cedric Diggory was handsome~ and Krum was really "Krum-like"~ Hermione looks a lot prettier now than she was before, and so was Ron--- and Fred and George were still cool :P Fleur was very beautiful too... but that's about it~ Cho Chang looked like she was some "pinoy na pinulat sa daan" with a scottish accent--- nothing special~ she wasn't even pretty!! (>_<) Hayz, I just don't think she was right for the part. Storywise~ I might say it was such a disappointment... as usual, Hollywood changed too much, Hollywood skipped too much, Hollywood "hollywoodified" the story yet again as with almost all adaptations. Oh well, so the stinky movie legacy goes on--- I wonder if the fifth one is going to be any different~

Sorry~ I am so noooooooooot a Potter-Head... ahahaha XD I'm biased against the book at some point I suppose... ^_^

[ first week report!! ]

2005-11-19T10:45:00.000-08:00

It's Saturday... and I've just gone through the first week of my 2nd Semester!! It wasn't as horrible as I expected it to be~ actually, stuff didn't turn out the way I foresaw them. First of all, my math teacher hasn't shown any signs of being a power-tripper (which he's rumored for)~ so far... he's been pretty okay since I'm starting to understand Math11 now.

Next, my Environmental Science [ES] class just sucks. Not because of the subject or the teacher, it's because of my classmates~ they're all a bunch of dumb snobs who just got lucky with their random numbers. ERGH~ they're all so irritating especially this "Aji" guy who just happens to be my groupmate for ES Lec and Lab!! (>_<) Do you know the feeling of just being stuffed into a group for the sake of it cause it's required? That how I feel... and I just wish everything would be individual work... (T_T) Cause I think they're a bunch of stupid slackers... *sob* I know I'm being judgmental at the moment, but I can't help it!! I'm seated at the last seat to the left during ES class so I'm sitting beside a wall and Marvin Haduca, my former Zoo-mate who doesn't even have any intention of even looking at me!! Like I want him to look at me anyway, he's one of those weird zoo-mates that I really didn't like being around with. I don't have any real "friends friends" in ES~ I really wish I'd just taken up Botany... The teacher isn't so bad--- the subject is boring but I can live with it... it's the PEOPLE. UGGGGH~!! I even have this ES-mate who thinks she's so cute and funny~ I wanted to stuff a metal rod down her throat to shut her up. Pa-cute friggin' lil prick!! Hahayz, only consolation I have is that we only meet twice a week~ I can always just study and listen to the prof, that way I don't have to "mingle" with my ES classmates.

As for my english class... I got Acuna (A-kun-ya) this prof who has the irrefutable reputation of being the ultimate terror prof. (@_@) Even the upperclassmen are warning me about him~ and I admit I'm freaked out of my skin because of it cause I have EVERYTHING to lose in English!!(T_T) How I wish that Ms. Candano was back... I don't want to have low grades in English... :( Well, so far he hasn't shown his "terror side" just yet~ but he made us buy a ton of expensive US-made college level books... plus his syllabus contained all the papers we have to submit from week 1 to week 18!! (@_@) Goodness... whattaguy~ o_O;;

I just hope I do well this 2nd semester... I hope and pray that my two BBBs (Best Block Buddies) do the same too~ I just can't imagine going through college without either one of them!! (>_<) They say that second semester just FLIES by... we have to push harder and strive farther from the start!! WE CAN DO THIS!! NYARRRRRRRR~!!

[ No More Latino Heat T_T ]

2005-11-16T19:06:00.000-08:00

Well... I just wanted to post a tribute to one of my favorite wrestlers on WWE:

~Eddie Guerrero ~

No more Latino Heat!! (T_T) Wah... Eddie!! He was found one morning (around two days ago) dead on his bathroom floor with his toothbrush still in his mouth. They said he prolly just dropped dead while brushing his teeth~ such a sad (not to mention unlikely) death for such a great wrestling superstar. =( I guess I'll never hear his themesong again, or see him dancing, or watch him do stunts with Rey Mysterio, or trash JBL's stuff anymore... (T_T) Come to think of it... Eddie and JBL's series will never come to an end cause Eddie's gone... we won't be able to see him again except in re-runs of past events. =(

Well... for all the other Eddie Guerrero fans out there, here's my tribute to one of the best WWE Superstars that ever graced your TV screens!!

VIVA LA RAZAAAAAAA~!!

[ Ethereal Autumn ]

2005-11-13T22:59:00.000-08:00

Nightingale, sing your song for me---
I who sit so restlessly beneath
The very boughs of this oak…
This oak which has been your perch,
Since that first Autumn shower---
So many winters past.

Nightingale, sing your song for me---
I who listen to your ethereal voice,
Ascending towards the heavens… towards
Freedom that lies beyond each horizon.
And I sit beneath your oak,
Only to listen to your sweet yet forlorn sonnet.

Nightingale, sing your song for me---
I who now raise up my arms to hold you,
To close my fingers around your fragile form…
To hold you tight against my chest---
Feel my now immense sorrow and
Weep…
Weep my little Nightingale---
Weep for the Autumn rains which you have never sung for…
Weep for the Winter moons which glass onyx shall never behold.

Sweet Nightingale, sing your song for me---
This cold and unforgiving Autumn night.
Let me grasp your throat and let me feel thy sorrow,
For on this night my hope dies with such ethereal
Melancholy.

*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
For what has happened this day.

[ back to school blues -_-;; ]

2005-11-13T18:05:00.000-08:00

Hayz... it's the 13th of November~ my last day of freedom before I go back to school. (T_T) But I'm not dreading school that much~ in fact I do want to go back to school... I'm just a litte agitated at the the idea that I'm going to have Math11 again this sem. *Shudders after remembering previous Ma11 experience* I hope I do better this semester... last sem wasn't too bad either, actually it's just my math grade that pulled everything else down. (T_T)

Anyway, it's a new semester--- NEW SEM~ NEW LIFE!! (Wow, parang slogan :P) But I plan on keeping my word on that... I need to pull my grades up so I would at least be a bit consistent on my other subjects. The only four things that are plaguing my mind right now concerning school are as follows:

1. I don't have any block J-mates in my math11 class... (T_T) *sob* *sob*

2. My new english 12 prof is rumored to be a humonggo terror teacher... and God knows I have everything to lose in English... *sob* *sob* (all the more)

3. I sort of wish I had chosen Botany over Environmental Science... cause I kinda find the activities they do in ES kinda boring... (@_@) But... oh well~ they said it would make my load lighter so I guess it's for the best.

4. I hope and pray that my 2 BBBs meet the QPIs they need to be able to stick around till next sem... Wah~ please... please... (>_<)

Well~ basically that's that. I've finished fixing my stuff last night------ Nyargh~ I was so tired cause I didn't realize how much junk and trash paperwork I had accumulated inside my school bags. (@_@) Nyahahahaha... nothing new there I suppose XD. I realized last night too that I had actual notes on only one class, Zoology!! *Lolz* At least I know my notes will be put to good use since six of my blockmates are taking up Zoology this coming semester.

Wah... I do hope this semester turns up better than the last one~ *prays* I'm just glad I got a semi-better schedule this time. Bugger thing is just that I have classes from 12:30-3:30 MWF with no breaks in between!! (@_@) Nyargh~!! But otherwise it's okay I guess... ^__^

Second Semester... HERE I COME!! *chanchararararaaaaaaaaaaaaan!!* :p

[ uber late but still uber happy ]

2005-11-08T19:31:00.000-08:00

I just wanted to share this photo which was taken approximately... hmmm... three months ago, during Neil Gaiman's visit. So here's a pic of (too happy) me ^_^ ready to have my book (Endless Nights) signed. ^__^ Oh yeah~ and the person in front of me is my good friend Aphrodite.

<3<3<3

The actual autograph of Neil Gaiman on my Endless Nights book's inner cover!! *swoon*

<3<3<3

Print # 35 out of 1000 of a hand-written note that came with my Anansi Boys book.

*thank you thank you thank you!!*

<3<3<3

*~*~*~*~*~* Dream!! *~*~*~*~*~*

[ revelations and mouthsores ]

2005-11-08T12:06:00.000-08:00

It's the eighth of November... that's less than a week before I start going back to school. In a way I'm looking forward to going to school because staying at home doing nothing is just boring me to bits. @_@ However, at the same time... I still don't want to go to school because I don't want to study again just yet... plus I'm going to have math again this semester~ I just hope I pass this time around.

Anyway, I got my first semester grades yesterday--- and well, I can say I pulled myself out of the hole I made for myself during the first part of the semester. (Ok, so does 4 Fs out of 6 subjects ring a bell? -_-;;) I managed to pull my grades up (remarkably) to my surprise~ I didn't expect to get the grades which appeared on my report card. My grades are as follows:

Communication in English I = A (wah~ I love you Ms. Candano <3)

Introduction to Fiction = B (Salamat Elmo!! Kahit na binigyan mo ako ng F sa advisory T_T)

Pakikipagtalastasan sa Filipino I = C+ (Ok lang Yoli~ kahit ni-rape mo first paper koh...)

Modern Mathematics I = W (THANK YOU SIR QUIMPO~!! DI NYO KO IN-F!! pero panira...)

Introduction to the Animal World (Lec) = B (Thank you Sir Yan!! <3)

Introduction to the Animal World (Lab) = C+ (Mirakulo~ tamad ako sa lab... pinasa lang aku!!)

Well my grades came out relatively okay... I pulled out of my first semester with a QPI of 2.50 that's a C+~ pretty good for my first sem. But the really sucky part is... if I hadn't taken Math11 and just stayed in Basic Math~ my QPI would have gone to 3.xx!!

I have to thank Sir Quimpo for giving me that W though~ I'm glad enough not to have gotten an F on my card... it just bugs me a lot that it pulled my grade down so much--- 3 units down the drain... along with my .50 when I had a chance to just get basic math. *Hits Sir Mina with a stick!! THIS IS ALL YOUR FAULT!! T_T kundi lang kita crush...=P) Oh shoot~ Well as my dad always says, "Well~ past is past--- bawi nalang." Which I am really planning to do... My dad already pushed me through some tutorials with Tita Agnette.

Tita Agnette- My dad's good friend in college who's a Physics Major; Way cool and she travels around the world!! She's going to Rome on November 21-24!! ^^

I hope I do survive math this sem... nakakahiya na sa magulang koh (>_<) I don't think my dad knows yet that summer classes cost 2000 pesos per unit~ and math has 3 units... so that's 6000 pesos for my summer classes T_T Goodness~ *heave* *heave*

I better start pumping myself up ready for next semester~ reg is tomorrow and I have to be in school extra early cause my random number is 15. That's great though~ I get to get my preferred NatSci (read: ES!! After zoo with Sir Yan, I think I'll survive with flying colors XD) and prolly get PE101 (No more outdoor sports please *remembers Panda days during lawn tennis* ergh~ the horror!!). I just have a suck MWF schedule... math, english, and lit--- with no breaks in between x_X;; Bugger~ *WHacks Reg tita with a steel rod* Antipatika~ amf ka!! I just hope my math teacher (Mr. Timothy Teng) is a kind one~ and passes me T_T... Wah fleashhhee??! <3

~*~*~>And yes... I have a new set of mouthsores (Read: Humonggo Singaw[s])---3 actually~ I have THREE BIG SORES IN MY MOUTH and they are just killing me (T_T) Why ME??! T_T Huhuhu... THEY BURN!! THEY BURN!! Papatawas ko na nga ito... ergh~ the agony... (x_X;;) Feel my pain ~(-_-~)

*Deep breath* Second Sem here I come!!

[ -DoLL-o-MaNiA- ]

2005-11-01T21:14:00.000-08:00

Need I explain~? hehehe... got a lil too happy with the doll making thing XD

Thus~

**MY THREE DOLLS!!**

Nyahahaha~ From L-R: Casual, Gothic, and just plain Happy ^_^

[ -HaPPy*HaLLoWeeN!!- ]

2005-11-01T19:54:00.000-08:00

^_^ HAPPY HALLOWEEN!! ^__^

Okay... so it's a day late~ sorry (>_<) Didn't feel like making a new entry yesterday. Too bad though~ I wanted to make an entry for the last day of October. *sigh* Well~ at least I have this entry for the first day of November!! ^__^

^_^ HAPPY ALL SAINTS DAY!! ^_^

Well there, just wanted to make a November first entry... and to show off this nice halloween doll I made just a while ago :D Wee~ cool doll maker ^__^ I know it doesn't look like me, but it's as close as I could get ^__^ So bear with it... ;p

* ~ Just gotta love a cute fat kitty ^_^ ~ *

[ delayed entry... again ]

2005-10-25T20:46:00.000-07:00

Well... as the title of this entry said, this is a (not so very) delayed entry concerning Saturday's disaster!! Well, it wasn't really a disaster~ more of a disappointment maybe. It was during Maki's party~ well I was pretty late for the party and by the time I got there, there was no more food left... Maki and his HS friends had already eaten through the boxes of pizza. Okay fine~ so it was partially because I was late--- but still... I thought it was a real party not a "party" or a drinking session masquerading as one. So I was practically starving to death~ since I haven't eaten since lunch (and no breakfast mind you) that day... and I drank this Chinese whatever thing called "Kung Fu." It *smelled* and *TASTED* distinctly of PLASTIC BALLOON. o_O;; Ergh~ then I downed a bottle of redhorse... with nothing to fill my stomach but tasteless peanuts (as in literally TASTELESS... no salt, no spiciness... no nothing)!! It was like chewing nothing... you feel it in your mouth, you feel it going down your throat~ but it tastes like nothing. (@_@) So obviously I wasn't the happiest being on the face of the planet... I was supposed to down another bottle~ but my stomach was just cursing me for drinking on an empty stomach... and based on experience, I knew that I wasn't going to like it when I went to bed. By around 11:00 pm, I couldn't take it anymore--- the people there (excluding people I knew) just frustrated me to bits... so I decided to go home. So hungry and ticked off, Me and M. Sannie grabbed a bite at Mc. Donald's before heading home... maybe the only consolation I got for that night was the cute green-haired tamborine girl I got from a happy meal. *Huggiesh*

Thank you for being the salvation of that damned night. ^^ <3

[ http://www.addictinggames.com ]

2005-10-19T23:47:00.000-07:00

It's nearly midnight and my eyes hurt from too much flash-gaming!! (@_@) <"Boneless Girl" (check the link under my deviant art link which says: Bored) which all started when I was blog-surfing since I was bored to death this afternoon. I got that link from Chuva's blog~ ahahaha... I guess I have her to thank for my glazed-eye look and not to mention bleeding brain tonight. If you're wondering why my brain si bleeding... it's because of this game called "Unlock" (again, check the links under my picture... the one that says: "Beat Me 1:32:58"). It's this puzzle game which is composed of around eight stages... and you just solve and solve~ until your brain bleeds!! (x_x) Well~ happily I did finish it!! Wahahaha~!! I conquered you stoooooopid flash game!! Took me exactly 1 hour 32 minutes and 58 seconds to finish that game~ (._.) Considering I was YM-ing and chit-chatting with other people at the same time~ I think that was a pretty good time. ^^;; (self-praise is required~ since my brain melted and spilled itself unto the floor)

Nyar~ I don't actually "win" anything in the end... but I do get FULFILLMENT (after wasting away in front of the PC and just wringing my brain dry on how I should solve puzzle after puzzle) and of course, BRAGGING RIGHTS (cause I'm probably the only one who had enough spare time on her hands to actually dwell on such a game -_-;;) Ergh... my brain is still experiencing aftershocks ~(-_-~) Ok... remind me not to play too much Flash/Java games in one day--- especially those which involve puzzles (x_x)

Well at least I retain my crown as the Flash Game King!! Wahahaha~!! (I think the games are getting to my head o_O;;) Oh well~ a happy day nonetheless ^^

[ reliving old memories ]

2005-10-19T16:08:00.000-07:00

I opened my violin case (my unbelievably dusty, ancient, neglected violin case) yesterday and I was very much surprised (as well as delighted) to find Schuldich still in tune. ^__^ Wee~ saved me the hassle of tuning him again... I'm lazy.^^;; So I took some of my old pieces out and started to play--- I cannot put into words the longing I felt... and the sadness... I have been apart from my violin and playing it for far too long. My fingers now stumbled on my simplest scale~ I had to do them over and over again to get my old rhythm back--- but even then, I feel as if my skills have become near-mediocre. I'm glad though that I can still play my old pieces quite well... it just saddens me to see that most of my old pieces were Mozart's duets... and one of my favorites, Trio Sonata in A minor. *sigh* I am but one... who is going to play the other parts with me? Going back to the chamber is out of the question~ I'd rather beat Sir Mark with a stick than to go back there!! *hmph* St. Scho doesn't offer music courses during the Sem Break... so maybe I'll inquire for next semester--- I can't take not playing the violin anymore (>_<)!! Yamaha is soooo out of the question too--- ahahaha~ they don't have decent teachers there! XD Oh well... maybe till I get a decent teacher and start having violin lessons again~ I guess I'll just have to keep playing on my own... I still have to study one of my solo pieces here so I can play it really REALLY well. ^_^ Then maybe I'd go on and study BT (which is such a headache to study). ^^;;

:: Schuldich and Me ::

[ -RainbowBrite-inactis- ]

2005-10-16T21:36:00.000-07:00

I've been hit by this Rainbow Brite-based disease... and thus THE NEW LAY-OUT!! Ahahaha... I know, it's very unlikely for me to have such a lay-out~ but I found it cute so there XD I find the pink monkey funny... and my edited banana-shaped, rainbow-colored boat just adds to the comic effect of it all! XD Changed the taggie to match the theme... guess it turned out okay~ hehehe!! Bet all these colors are just killing you people huh? Oh well =P Good thing though, I HAVE MY COMMENT SYSTEM BACK!! ^__^ So feel free to drop me a line~ Comment and Tag meh :D

Just luff teh feenk monkeeeeey <3

[ -SemBreaaaaaak~!!- ]

2005-10-16T14:46:00.000-07:00

Ahahaha~ so the title is self-explanatory... SEM BREAK NAAAAAAAAAH~!! Woohoo~!! *jumps up and down and waves arms hysterically in the air* Okay~ so the entry came a little late... 4.5 days late to be exact XD But still, it's SEM BREEEEEAAAAAAAAK~!! Time to bum around and get to do some R & R (Rest and Relaxation) after such a more-than-stressful semester. This first sem in college really punched me in the face with a brick~ I had the worst dose of inferiority complex during my first weeks in the Ateneo... it was torture (@_@). Memories... as far as I'm concerned the very distinct memories from this sem were:

1. Discovering that graduating from H.S. with honors means NADA in college.
2. Learning to sing the song: "It's raining Fs" especially when it concerns Fil11 papers and Advisory marks
3. Having it drilled to your brain that St. Scho math is as good as a bullet in the head
4. Realizing that the less time you're given for classes isn't synonymous to loads of FREE TIME...
5. Realizing (again) that there is NO SUCH THING AS "FREE TIME" in college... you have to study to get somewhere
6. Crying to actually pass... and not thinking bout honors and DLs or whatever~
7. Having 19 people in your block is such a good thing ^_^
8. Learning that Seminarians are SUCH BIG PERVERTS too... like the rest of the population--- sometimes even MUCH MUCH WORSE *siko siko kay Salvi* =P
9. Belonging to a triad and having so much fun and memories together ^__^ [The Tribal Council Rules!! ^^]
10. Discovering who your real friends are ^__^ *awwwww moment* =P

Well... that's it for now... though there are TONS more to share. In the meantime, I'm just gonna take my time and enjoy my one month of pure R & R (except my math tutorials T_T friggin' math11...). Final grades will be out by November 7th, Reg is on the 9th... My random number is 15~ ergh... I have to be at school by 6:30 AM for this!! Nyar~ (@_@) Well at least I get E.S. for my natsci--- that's a good thing, especially after going through Zoology with Sir Yan as our teacher for both lab and lec (gruuuuuuesome thought, don't wanna remember XD). He was my favorite teacher though... and Zoo was my favorite subject for my first sem~ even if I didn't get really high grades in that subject.

Whew~ my first sem in college has really taught me a lot. I became an official nerd after I got my advisory marks (which was composed of more Fs than other letters) (*-*)... and I hope all my hard work to make up for my free-falling grades finally pay off. ^_^ I can only pray and hope for the best now... and pass math11 next sem~ (>_<) *prays harder* Nyar~ oh well... that's it... HAPPY SEMBREAK TO MEEEEEEEEH ^__^ (and all the other people who are enjoying their sembreak as well) =P

[ of overnight stays and morning revelations p.2~ ]

2005-10-11T18:57:00.000-07:00

**Note: I am suffering from a horrible headache right now and I can't seem to get to sleep... so I'm just going to continue from where I left off last time.**

Anyway, the following morning... Duo woke up and was about to open the door when Billy woke up like the dead [Otherwise known as the "Zombie-Shotgun-to-the-face technique"] and shot the question, "Kayo ba ng kapatid koh?" right smack on Duo's face. Of course, Duo had enough sense in him that morning NOT to lie... so he didn't--- and he said the truth. "OO." Synonymous to "Yeah, Yes, Yes yes yow mehn~, Yeabah, Whatevah--- Ok malabo nah." Well... Billy took it better than I thought he would... which is a good thing. ^_^

However, a lot of boundaries had to be set--- just so I don't get "The Eye." CODENAME: "nilo-Lord of the Rings" ako ng magulang koh... (an allusion to the concept of The Eye of Sauron)." Oh well... things like these come with a price~ and it's okay--- if it means staying clear of the warpath then I have no objections to that. Besides the fact that my sister told me that my dad is going on uber noidy [translation: sobrang paranoid] mode~ it's best we stay clear... and just go with the flow to avoid a very unpleasant counterflow situation. ^_^

So it's out in the open!! Ahahaha~ deym... it feels good!! (ahahaha... though not entirely out in the open and I have to clear things up--- aka cover up blah blah be not suspicious-looking) but out in the open nonetheless, and it feels great!! ^_^ Hayz~ AYABYYUH BILLEHBOY!! =P

[ of overnight stays and morning revelations p.1~ ]

2005-10-08T16:36:00.000-07:00

Last night, me and my blockmates watched A History of Violence (Viggo Mortensen ^.^) in Rockwell. However, when we had just dropped Tiny off at her house, the rain just fell in torrents and in sheets. I thought it was next to impossible for Duo to drive home in that kind of rain... a few minutes later, I realized that it was IMPOSSIBLE for Duo to drive home in that kind of rain. So the rain was falling like there was no tomorrow, and the only choice we had at that time was for Duo to spend the night at my place. We arrived at my house around 9pm or so... the flood had already gone past the sidewalk. We decided to just make a run for it (meaning just accross the street cause our side of the road was a tow-away zone -_-;;) and we did---- within two seconds outside the car--- we were soaked, like a pair of wet kittens!! Not only that, we couldn't cross from that part of the street cause the flood reached up to mid-thigh level (in terms of MY legs... Duo's legs are WAAAAAAAAAY longer... doi~ =P). So we had to run further down the street, trying to find a part which was shallow enough to cross... (ergh~ not to mention the fact that my slippers kept on trying to stay buoyant in the flood)!! By the time we got to the other side, we were already wet inside and out! To make matters worse, the flood caught one of my slippers and I had to make Duo run after it! After all that fuss, we finally got into the house... along with the warmth, the dryness and the towels.

My parents didn't mind having Duo stay over, allowing him to drive home in that kind of weather was synonymous to murder! Duo just used Billy's clothes, as well as the bed beside his! Ahahaha... and so he slept there--- and the next part will be written in part II!! ^_^

[ what a lame and boring evening... ]

2005-10-06T20:41:00.000-07:00

I just came home from an averagely (iono if there's such a term~ but I am coining it =P) okay night... but it just had to end up lame and boring~ like the whole thing was downright pointless and well~ boring. I can't believe it... I know we need to have this "telephone" type thing--- not a TV sort of thing. Cause when you're using telephones you need both parties to be involved in a conversation. You get satisfied, the other party is satisfied as well... that's how telephones usually work. On the other hand, TVs are just TVs--- teleVISION. You sit down turn it on and watch when you feel like it, thus getting entertainment and satisfaction, but one you're finished or tired with it you just turn it off and go. Is the TV happy? No, I don't think so. Television my a**~ What a system... I'd be better off reading some three-letter magazine or something at least I'd GET SOMEWHERE.

Urgh, I have a lit paper due tomorrow and I'm giving myself uncalled for stress~ but I just can't help it... I just got soooooo pissed off and completely thrown off the mood for at least tonight... or tomorrow night--- or the next couple of nights aheah~ Ion't give a damn!! I'd rather be typing my papers and researching on the Galapagos Turtles instead of ranting bout this LAME and BORING evening~ I would have been much more satisfied with a magazine... a poster... a movie... or a TREE (eat your heart out, chew it and feed it to the cats). *Slams head on the computer table* I'm too damn distracted and worked up to work right now... I think I'll amuse myself first and cool off a bit~ then maybe I can get some decent work done around here.

Rule # Whatever:

If you ruin someone's day, try your best to save it when you still have a chance.

*Newly created continuation:

And when you're finally able to save it, DON'T BLOW IT BY DOING UNSPOKEN RULE #1.

The irony... the greed... the lust... and the end of it.

fcuk off buddy... I'm pissed off.

[ ~october enlightenment~ ]

2005-10-01T10:59:00.000-07:00

IT'S THE FIRST DAY OF OCTOBER!! *weeee~!!* It's nice to wake up on a cloudy Saturday morning and realize that we don't have to crunch a thousand takes for our Fil11 project anymore. ^_^ Finally~ my first R&R (rest and relaxation) Saturday :) I can finally wake up and not rush to the bathroom and get shoot a thousand scenes in school like what we've been doing for the past month I think... or three weeks. But I think that all our hard work has paid off... I just pray and hope that it shows up in our final grades (@_@). Hmm... I finally have time to sit down and pick up my Anansi Boys novel (weee~ thanks so much ^.^) and start reading again. I'm trying hard not to chew right through the book at once =P *yawn* Such a nice cloudy and cool day today~ I wanna crawl back into bed to sleep. *ZZZzzz* I slept late this morning~ but it was well worth it... I had a good dose of October Enlightenment!! :D

New month, New Life... I just realized the sem is about to end soon--- my finals week is coming up (and I hope I do really well in my Lit finals... I just got a loser average for my two LTs and I need at least a C) as well as my Zoo Lec Finals... I NEED THAT C+!! Hmmm... All I really want this term is to actually PASS (with a 1.8 QPI)~ That's all I'm asking for this sem... *prays hard* If ever I pass this sem I promise I'll do my best to excel the next sem and the next years (hopefully) to come!!

This is my month of redemption!! I pray that the Big Guy be with me through these times of trial... Thank you for your guidance and for what you've given me... which is one of the best things in the world. ^_^

[ Time Flies When You're Having Fun ]

2005-09-30T23:59:00.000-07:00

:: The Tribal Council of Elders ::

=:Me as the Mutant? Yano-dude as Professor X (XX) and Duo as Professor X-Rated:=

[ maybe that's all i was ever good for~ ]

2005-09-30T23:39:00.000-07:00

It's September 30th... and I am writing my third and last entry for this month. I've just had a lot on my mind lately~ aside from being really busy in school since the semester is nearing its end. Iono~ a lot of things have been going inadvertently "wrong" not wrong WRONG, just not going on the right track maybe. It's as if everything gets derailed at one point or another and ends up crashing and plummeting to the ground--- I just don't understand why it has to be that way. I know I should be really happy during this point in time, and I am!! I really am... it just seems that everything isn't cooperating with the whole scheme--- something just HAS to go off-course and blow everything out of proportion. I'm begining to think that I'm the problem... that maybe I was wrong the whole time. Ugh~ maybe it WAS and IS my fault... *sigh* Iono what to do anymore, I'm being so pathetic and unfair. I'm sorry.

I know this entry doesn't make sense to those who're going to read it~ I just need to get a few messed up random thoughts of my mind. Maybe it's my sorethroat or because I haven't been feeling very well lately... or I'm just being an idiot--- Whatever it is, it's bothering me... as well as saddens me. Yes, I should be happy but I'm not... I would be lying if I said I was. I'm sad--- and disappointed at myself for being like this lately. It's no one else's fault~ it's just me. How pathetic, I can't understand what good I'm doing anyone--- being like this maybe~ maybe that's all I was ever good for anyway.

Am I pissed off? No. Am I angry? No. Am I depressed? Somewhat. Am I sad: Yes... but that's life~ sometimes you're happy, sometime's your sad. All I can do now is go on with a smile on my face and pray that some good comes out from all of this. *sigh*

[ . . . a e o n s . . . ]

2005-09-24T21:54:00.000-07:00

GOODNESS~ this has probably been my most delayed post in my whole history of blogging!! Yeah I know~ I've been unbelievably lazy lately that's why I haven't written a new entry... but now I am!! :D Anyway, I just got home from school... we were filming a bunch of segments for our final Fil11 project~ and I think today's shooting was really productive considering only me, Yano-dude and Duo were there. It was sooooooo much fun shooting in the soccer field with my green shirt, skirt and umbrella ^__^ We also took a shot with the statue of Moro outside the sport's complex... too bad we didn't get to shoot the whole thing, SINCE DUO FORGOT TO BRING THE KEYS TO THE SEGWAY!! Not only that.... he only realized that he forgot to bring it when they were already finished assembling the thing!! Sad~ Yano-dude was really looking forward to riding the Segway and hooting in the background while I recited my Captain Barbell thingie~ (>_<)

Ugh~ I'm so tired... my body feels so heavy--- and I feel so light-headed. I hope I don't come down with something~ I can't get sick now... not when the sem is nearing its end. I'm finally dropping my math~ stupid math--- couldn't catch up... a W is way better than an F. Well, I think I'm catching up on my other subjects which is good--- I just hope it shows up in my grades by the end of the sem *prays some more* I hope I meet the expected QPI... I love my school and the people there so much~ I'll do my best to stay ^__^

I have so many things to be thankful for... my school... the people... my teachers maybe... my life... my family~ and I am really thankful for everything that has happened to me lately~ good or bad. I just hope the BIG GUY sees me through~ and yes for those who are still wondering... I've made ammends with the big guy!! ^_^

Thank you for making everyday a wonderful day to wake up to. ^_^

[ shutter bug: ateneo episode ]

2005-09-01T21:45:00.000-07:00

Ma-Anne Alyas Shobe-Wan: Masyado atang masaya ngayon ah, baka kabagin XD

Si Shobe-Wan parin... mukang nananaginip naman ngayon~

Si Mameesh Kat~ doing a SailorMoon rendition sa Caf Up XD

Bespren at KaLive-in ni Duo--- si Rossy-boy~ sa may Manang's =P

Me during Zoology Lab... peechur peechur muna ^^

Wow~ ang gwapo ng boyfriend ko sa Zoology Lab... grabe! Macho Fafeetoh ang dating!!

Sorry kung PDA kami ha... *lolz*

Me during Fil11 Class... stolen shot nang aking seatmate/cheatmate (pareho naman kaming bokya sa Fil kaya wala rin -_-) si Duo XD

[ ^_^ undergoing smile therapy ^_^ ]

2005-09-01T19:43:00.000-07:00

*C-H-E-E-Z-E-E-H*

After a very traumatizing (academically-related) incident, I would normally be wallowing in my own misery right now like I always do. However, I didn't wallow in misery--- oh no~ not this time. Why? Cause I'm undergoing smile therapy ^_^ that's why. Hehehe :D Feeling sorry for myself won't get me anywhere, nor would it raise my grades--- but getting up and studying hard will ^_^ Hardwork + Time Management + De-Stress + SMILE THERAPY = HaPPy :D Well, I think I'm getting back up on my feet... I passed my Mollusca quiz as well as my second lab practicals for Zoology. I also passed my recent quiz in literature~ and hopefully I do well in my Fil11 Long test. I asked for help and my prayers were answered. Divine Intervention or whatever~ I don't care, all I know is that I've found the best reason to smile and do well in school~ thank you so much ^_^ Life's a lot less stressful now~ =)

[ i love this day!! ^__^ ]

2005-08-29T23:59:00.000-07:00

I LOVE THIS DAAAAAAY~!!

[ nerd mode is definitely on and in over drive!! ]

2005-08-28T13:04:00.000-07:00

Due to "some instances" earlier this week... I have decided to go on Nerd Mode. I need to get my grades up~ I think I'm in grave danger (>_<) However, I still have hope of catching up and making up for lost time. I talked to my sister about this, she said three things: (1)De-stress (2)Time Management and (3)Study Study Study. Yeah~ the three keys to the successful execution of operation Nerd Mode!! Well, I've actually started on it... I think I'm improving ^_^ I hope I really am~ I need to save my free-falling grades.

Furthermore, I just learned (thanks to that INTAC psychology thingie) that I'm a 100% stressed individual. GOODNESS~ I guess I'm taking this transition from HS to college really badly. I'm not adjusting/adapting very well T_T I feel like such a kid.

Oh well~ I just have to learn from my mistakes and not dwell or brood on them. SMILE and just DO it. (thanks rimo ^^) "Try" is out of the question~ JUST DO IT. (Nike :P)

[ an afternoon at my house^^ ]

2005-08-21T22:59:00.000-07:00

These were a few pics taken at my house, where we made REAL PROGRESS

for our Fil11 project. ^_^

Ang mga badeng ng Block J!! :P (L to R: kat, ma-anne, tiny

Me and Yano-dude in all his Starfeeshy glory :D (ang itim namin amf~)

Me and Duo~ ano ba yan... ano ako dito??! Anino ni Duo amf ahahaha :D

Aba~ aba~ aba~ away nanaman ata sila ni... hehehe (feash ma-anne :P)

[ after a whole lot of stress~ ]

2005-08-21T14:04:00.000-07:00

After the past two overly-stressful weeks, I've finally found myself winding down from all that. My head is not a chaotic jumble of math grades, Fs, filipino teachers, more Fs and what Ifs about my grade anymore. In other words, I finally got a BREATHER!! For the first time in two weeks, I'm finally able to relax!! Could you imagine... I went through a Zoology quiz about phylum mollusca, a math longtest followed by math midterms the very next day, then our lab practicals after that. Goodness~ my head was in such a crappy state after our math longtest so I was really in no mood to study when I got home. To make matters worse, Ate Gina couldn't come cause she had to go over time at work~ so I just studied on my own and went to bed. Then~ after the midterms... needless to say, my mind melted into mush--- so I didn't bother to study for my lab practicals for the following day. I managed to pass my first lab practicals~ which is a good thing--- cause I didn't study for that anyway. (They were all just blobs with dots o_O;;) But after that more-than-just-stressful week~ I finally got myself together (after a week of MAJOR LGM -Lantang.Gulay.Mode- that was a big improvement :P)

~De-Stressing Weekend~

Thursday [08-18-05]: Quimpo Day... Math (x_x)

Mag:net~Unicorns~Slow Shrimps~and a Taxi Driver from Hell

I'll just cut the school part of the day-- anyway, Me, Tiny and Duo went home via commute route since Duo's car was under the coding scheme for the day. We hung out at home till around 7 then decided to take a taxi back to the Ateneo. Urgh~ we got such a HORRIBLE taxi driver. Not only was he smoking (which is illegal), when he took a U-turn~ he scraped the bottom front end of his taxi on a concrete ramp!! To make matters worse, when we boarded the taxi he asked for a 50 peso "patong" since (according to him) Katipunan was far!! WTF~??! He drove so slowly that a kalesa could've easily overtaken us~ and the car was so wiggly!! We didn't even know if he knew how to drive... stupid prick! To make matters worse he didn't know his way around, as in he had NO IDEA HOW TO GET ANYWHERE!! It was so annoying... I think it was just a scheme to drive round and round so he'd charge bigger fare (good thing Duo was with us, at least he knew the directions)!! When we couldn't take it anymore we just asked to be dropped off at Green Belt and the meter charged us 85 PESOS!! HELLO??! obviously the damn thing was rigged because that was a makati-makati route and it only took me around 50-70 peso fare using the same route on a NORMAL taxi!! Needless to say~ we were definitely pissed. Good thing we got a decent driver after that which drove us all the way to Ateneo. So we went to Mag:net and watched this stand up comedy which Tiny had to watch~ and it was worth the money! They were hilarious!! for most anyway, the shrimp didn't get the jokes--- it was either he was over analyzing the situation (like he always does) or he just plain DOESN'T GET IT. Sabi nga nila para maka-intindi ng joke you gotta have Wit... Wit is a form of knowledge~ which I think--- he lacks a LOT of. (evil... again...) Not to mention that he had this D.I. (dance instructor) look with the woman's long sleeved blouse that was unbuttoned till halfway down his chest (ergh~ whatta sight) and his eye-brow pencil goatee (God~ that just killed us x_x) After the show, we took a look at the shop at the first floor of the cafe~ and they sold so much CUTE stuff!! My personal favorite was this bracelet with the little unicorns on it!! ERGH~ I WANTED THAT THING SOOOOOOO BADLY (>_<) *sigh* oh well~ so we went home, and the night ended in a FREE FALL which was much worse than it was during physics class! ahahaha :P

Friday [08-19-05]: Quezon City Day~ No Classes ^_^

Shrimp = Pentium 1 (or even slower processing speed)

We had a group meeting for our filipino project (which we have to make EXTRA GOOD to redeem our grades)... and of course~ SHRIMP had to be there. So he came in, around 1.5 hours earlier than Tin, followed by Tiny (taksil ka parin gagu ka!), then Duo, then Yano-dude, and finally Ma-Anne (who got lost on the way here :P)!! I left him to play warcraft downstairs with a sheepish excuse than me and tin had to do some "girl stuff" which was more of a BS session rather than actual "girl talk" (evil >:P). So anyway we had to let him join sooner or later so we just went on with the meeting. Shrimp gave me such a horrible headache with his comments and his processing speed that I doubt could even measure up to a pentium one processor!! GOD!! He's soooooo slooooow~ and then he even has the nerve to tell us that we should get going along with our work (which we were... after the spongebob movie). He was such a KJ, wet blankety lil prick--- I wanted to whack him!! But anyway, we just got over with the meeting then had a good round of MAGIC SING (shrimp already went home by this time--- thank goodness)!! After that we just went to the St. Scho concert, and I got to see Merks, Chuva, Retard and Nene again!! ^__^ waah~ I miss those guys :D And well~ the night ended with a bungee jump--- which was really quite unexpected. :P

Saturday [08-20-05]: INTAC Exposure Trip~

Over-Exposed...

Yesterday, we had our INTAC exposure trip. We were told to assemble at the Ateneo cornfield by 11:00 am SHARP. Me and Tiny went to school early because I had to submit my personal profile sheet, then we met up with Duo and we went to the supermarket to buy candies for the kids since we were informed that we would be celebrating a birthday party somewhere in Payatas. We arrived at the cornfield at 11:30 since we grabbed a quick lunch at the caf~ however, there were only around 5-7 of us there. So we waited some more... an hour passed (12:30)~ then another (1:30)~ We were all getting restless (I was getting cranky because I was sleepy but I couldn't sleep due to the heat and the lack of places to actually be able to sleep). FINALLY~ at around 2:00 we were asked to settle down and get ready to board the jeep... then they told us we weren't going to celebrate a birthday party anymore... so were like o_O;; WHAT THE F---??! What were we supposed to do with cakes and a bunch of colored balloons that had "HAPPY BIRTHDAY" printed all over them??! Anyway, we were sent to Boy's Town somewhere in Marikina--- and we were OVERLY-EXPOSED TO MALE JUVENILE BEHAVIOR. Sure it was ok at first, then they got really touchy and---- ergh~~ cause some of them were already old-- some were even older than me!! Especially this weird green t-shirt wearing guy who made up stories about his birthday and his age (he even asked Yano-dude for 20 pesos na "pang-yosi"). There was this older one too who just had to scream "PUTANG INA MO KASI" with every sentence that comes out of his mouth. P.I. in font size 72, bold, underlined and italicized!! Goodness >_<>

Finally we went back to the Ateneo, ate dinner at Wok dis Way (best sisig and seafood rice ^.^), then watched a the movie entitled Skeleton Key at Rockwell. Well~ the movie sucked--- I got dizzy~ (@_@) but it did have its conselations ^_^ The night ended with a semi-bungee jump~ a big improvement if I might say so myself. ^_^

[ shutter bug :P ]

2005-08-17T23:21:00.000-07:00

Me, Billy and Vincent (one who's placing the horns) :P

Manoy Boy~ My Big Brother's Twin :D

Oh yeah~ I have groupies!! (Jeck: my black kitty and Vincent: my nephew) ^_^

[ on my way to hell ]

2005-08-16T19:24:00.000-07:00

loser.repressed.fucker.motherfucker.gaylord.gaylordfucker.anakngtokwa.anakngtinapa.futaena.walangkwentang tao.madderpakker.pakshet.asshole.stuckupgay.faggot.damnfaggot.stupid.bobo.amf.amputek.futeks.walangkwenta.

gagu.tanga.shungak.ulupong.tanga.kupal.halimaw.bakulaw.balakubak.kuto.balakubakngkuto.garapata.mukangaso.

mukangkabayo.longkatuts.butt-kisser.mamaw.mumoo.bobing.bopols.jologs.stupidteacher.bakla.

badaff.badeng.vaklush.closetqueen.silahis.multo.multongbakla.malibog.mahiligsalola.childmolester.

pedophile.idiot.slow.bullheaded.stubborn.curlyhairedpizzafacedfool.foolishguy.mukangpaa

(and the list goes on...)

[ Definition of RAPE ]

2005-08-16T18:18:00.000-07:00

Look and see for yourself... the handiwork of my Fil11 teacher~

Mr. MADDERPAKKERANAKNGTINAPAFUTAKTEKAH JAMENDANG.

(takte~ parang nagte-testing kung may tinta ballpen nya eh.)

...and that's just the first page! Mine was even lucky at this rate--- HE refused to read further on from the second page of many of my blockmates' papers. All of us in class save for 3 (from what I know) got Fs~ ergh... nice foregrounding for my Math 11 LT this same day. Needless to say~ that's another F for my advisory mark. Maybe I should be thankful enough that he read mine till the end~ BUT I'M NOT---

CAUSE HE'S SUCH A STUPID SELF-ABSORBED STUCK UP ASS HOLE!!

I slept at 4:30 am for this--- and I get an F??! Fucker~ I know I didn't deserve an F!!

*More Rape Victim Pictures*
The Rape: Page II

The Rape: Page III

The Rape: Page IV

-With this pain... I thee Feel-

[ stress of cataclysmic proportions ]

2005-08-15T23:53:00.000-07:00

ergh... tonight~ i feel as stressed as hell! And as the title of my entry implies... it is stress of CATACLYSMIC proportions. Not only do I have my Phylum Mollusca quiz for zoo-lec tomorrow [12:00-1:30] but I also have my LT2 in Math 11 at 1:30!! Right after studying about soft-bodied creatures be damned~ Actually... Zoo~ I can live with--- I like zoology, it just gets really tricky when it comes to quizzes. But math11??! Who am I kidding~ I can't even pass my longtest to save my life!! (x_x) *sigh* I should really reduce this self-pity crap I always induce on myself everytime we have a math related thing going~ it just makes me feel all the worse about my current situation (which actually reads "F--- or Fucking Frigging Math").

Damn~ my head hurts... it's like having two jackhammers pressed to your temples... and they're just pounding away--- driving me insane!! Ugh~ the stress!! Can't cope with the stress... I need DIVINE INTERVENTION!! I am having such a sucky time trying to adjust to the academic load--- as well as the physical and emotional stress of college life. *sob* It makes me wanna go back to high school where everything didn't seem so easy but I get by with good grades. Ergh~ here in college I have to spill my guts out studying and still get myself Cs Ds and Fs... CULTURE SHOCK!! (>_<) The agony... I've never had grades like these--- then again, I've never had subjects as hard as these in HS. College makes HS so over-rated... man~ this sucks!!

I feel so mediocre that I often find myself wanting to cry buckets and buckets of tears out of my frustration. *Places a "Need A Huggy Right Now" Sign on Forehead* (T_T) *cries in a heap*

Stress~ (~o_o)~ All this stress is pushing my "MAJOR LGM" buttons... and I don't like it when I go all LGM [Lantang Gulay Mode]--- it affects other people. And as I've said~ I find few reasons to frown but try a gazillion reasons to smile ^__^ FUNFACT: It actually takes more muscles to frown compared to the number of muscles used when you smile ^__^ hehehe~

For you I'd smile even in the most miserable conditions... Why? I dunno--- one of the gazillion reasons to smile maybe ^_^

[ epiphany~ on a rainy morning ]

2005-08-12T12:02:00.000-07:00

I woke up today to the sound of raindrops upon our roof~ it was cold... and it was hell to even think about untangling myself from the sheets and getting up. No~ i wasn't about to do that at that moment... i was just glad enough to nestle snugly between the warm sheets. I thought of sleep, the rain, the cold weather, the joy of not having classes today, the YM convos i had the night before, the craving for more sleep... The room was dark, the sun was not in today... the storm must have chased him away~ I rolled over and curled up once more. I was intent on catching a few more ZzZzZzZzZzs before I actually started my day.

My mom left the money I needed to get my new haircut today~ I'm going to Eggy's birthday thingie later at 6 pm--- hope the rain stops by then~ or at least I hope the wind isn't this strong anymore *looks out the window and sees the plants being helplessly abused by the wind* This day is just too good to be wasted on too much wind and rain. *smile* ^__^

It's just a really good feeling to wake up in the morning and realize that the nightmare is over... the headaches, the latenight soap opera sessions, the swollen eyes, the sleepless nights, the midnight sermons, the useless squabbles. Ahahaha~ it feels utterly different, to finally wake up in the morning, yawn, stretch, curl up--- and realize that it's

finally

over...

and that you finally have a reason to look forward~

to a new day.

[ a firm resolve ]

2005-08-09T23:07:00.000-07:00

Well... let me start off with a brief over-view of my LOSER (*does 3d loser action right here*) first college semester performance. I failed my first math L.T. oh yeah~ I got a big fat F (!!) but enough on that~ I don't want to depress myself... yet again. I'm getting Cs and Ds and probably Fs too in my Zoology quizzes... probably because they're majorly book-based with a dash and a sprinkle of note powers--- which make it all the more difficult. Ergh~ this shouldn't be the case--- I'm getting Cs, Ds and Fs in my allegedly "best science subject!" ergh~ I'm getting really noidy~ (@_@) This average paranoia is killing me... ugh~ I've been slacking off--- BIG TIME!!

Anyway, as a response to my LOSER performance... I have decided to stand-up to the challenge of my first college semester in (the) Ateneo!! I shall do my best not only to TRY but to ACCOMPLISH the following tasks (to assure the redemption of my grades):

1. Gain a positive perspective towards Math 11... it must be true that if you like something, it's easier to understand ( I pray it holds true for Math 11 as well).

2. Study and pass my next longtests and my midterms in Math 11.

3. Do my math homework regularly.

4. Read and Re-Read the assigned Zoology topic for the quiz (inclusive of book and notebook).

5. Pass the rest of my Zoology quizzes starting from my Mollusca quiz tomorrow.

6. I shall not cram lab reports the night before the submission (God knows i need all the sleep I can get~ @_@)

Other goals may follow, but as of this moment--- these are my first priorities~ I have to PASS MATH 11 and I have to EXCEL in ZOOLOGY. Come on Pia~ YOU CAN DO THIS!! FIGHT!! FIGHT!! FIGHT!!

I didn't get into Ateneo for any other reason.

I passed the ACET. I am an Atenean.

I can do this~ and MORE.

^_^ smile~

[ ThE insert name here TriaD ]

2005-08-09T22:36:00.000-07:00

Me, Duo and Yano in Rockwell after attending our blockmates' Soutana (?!)

We had this piccie taken after we watched The Island.

[Ang tatangkad nang bodyguards koh... nyahahaha =P]

[ on getting an F, being traumatized and feeling stupid ]

2005-08-01T11:09:00.000-07:00

it has been around four days since i got my first F in the ateneo~ oh... and do i need to elaborate? elaborate on the drama~ the trauma~ the emotional turmoil~ and the shame... God~ i could go on forever!! i just feel utterly miserable and stupid~ -_-;; maybe this is an expected reaction when you get the first real failure in your life--- it's catastrophic (not to mention majorly traumatic) . oh well~ a lot of people told me that things like this happen--- and i just have to get up and fight again. "bawi nalang yan-- kaya mo yan! nag-aadjust ka pa naman eh" how i wish and pray that they are right--- that somehow i would be able to get up and pass the next exams lined up for me... that by some miracle i would be able to get through math 11 in one piece. i'd throw a party if i got a D in that subject--- ergh~ what i would do to just PASS the freakin' subject. i feel so miserable~ well, a little less miserable after i put myself through sneaker therapy. sneaker therapy? uhhh--- i just went to the mall with my mom and my sister~ and bought three new pairs of sneakers plus a pair of slippers. okay~ did that make me feel better? yeah maybe it did--- a lil bit >_<

one more thing~ my zoology grades suck... not suck as in in math terms that i'm failing~ suck more because they're passing--- but they're not high. in other words dear one--- my grades are average grades... WHICH IS NOT GOOD--- another significant first. argh~ i gotta pull my grades up >_<>

and still another thing~ this ADS business isn't turning out to be very appealing to me anymore. i dunno~ it just doesn't seem "FUN" anymore--- not "fun" not happy dandy sunshine rainbow fun... >_<>

i need divine intervention--- before i sink into another fit of depression.

[ candy and bubblegum ^_^ ]

2005-07-30T18:43:00.000-07:00

i wore my pink superman shirt today... it's different cause i don't normally wear pink--- it must be a special day ^_^ weird~ i wore pink two days in a row... @_@ i had my hair in braids too like i used to during my senior year~ i guess i missed having my two braids >_<> makes me wonder~ pink + green + braids = candy(??) someone actually told me that today ^_^ it sounds nice actually... hehehe :) candy reminds me of bubblegum and the color red~

weee~ ^_^ what a candy-colored day!!

Lunar*Paradox

MOVING OUT!!

:: Food for Thought ::

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:: Resignation ::

Lazy Crammer :P

:: SEMBREAK!! ...and not loving it... ::

:: I Love Surprises!! :) ::

:: Friday the 13th, and I'm HATING it. ::

:: Hell-Heaven-Hell ::

:: Redemption ::

:: Random Post ::

:: Emo Warning: ON ::

:: Falling in Love With You... ::

:: I Miss Dancing for Fun :( ::

:: HAPPY BIRTHDAY RETARD!! :) ::

:: We Lab You Shobewan :) ::

:: Loving September 08 ::

Another Month... I Give You SEPTEMBER.

I have a new life ahead of me...

::Somebody Just SHOOT ME NOW::

:: PLEASE SAVE THE KITTIES!! ::

::HAPPY 2ND ANNIVERSARY!!::

::Consumed.::

::Haaaaaaaaay July!!::

:: Rainy Day Update!! ::

:: HeLLo JuLy!! ::

10 of Life's Greatest Pleasures

-- First Sophomore Week!! --

3-Point Entry

The Ultimate Frustration

BEERDAY!! BEERDAY!! :D

Happy Birthday to MEEEE!!

For the Good Gift Givers!! ^_^

Nakaw Kay Papa Bodeee =P

AT LAAAAAAASSSST!!

..::Inferioriy Syndrome::..

..::First Week Report::..

..::Going Back to School??!::..

..::Summer Update!!::..

Bored Much? Uh... Yes indeed.

..::Summer-iffic Scandals!!::..

**Tribute to Block J!!**

..:: Fantastic Weekend!! ::..

[ ACIL-errifiiiiic Week!! :D ]

On Animal Rights, Cramming, and Mood Swings

** RAW LiVE TOUR!! **

Post MEGA Hell Week Report

So Crazy in Luuuuurve~ ^.^

**Affirmation**

+ Mga Pagninilay... +

*~Happy-Hearts-Month!!~*

- Ang Sampung Kautusan ni Pia -

--My "Agenda" for the Coming Week--

Reasons...

[ Happy New Year!! ^_^ ]

[ Maligayang Pasko!! ]

**ChRiStMaS*WiSh*LiSt**

[ SHIT HAPPENS!! ]

[ utterly confused. ]

[ Snow!! ]

[ Black & White ]

[ bored... :D ]

You Are Fall!

You Are Strawberry Ice Cream!What Flavor Ice Cream Are You? Take This Quiz :-)

[ uh... procrastinating again... ]

[ consumed. ]

[ boring Harry Potter 4 ]

[ first week report!! ]

[ No More Latino Heat T_T ]

[ Ethereal Autumn ]

[ back to school blues -_-;; ]

[ *uber late* but still *uber happy* ]

[ revelations and mouthsores ]

[ -DoLL-o-MaNiA- ]

[ -HaPPy*HaLLoWeeN!!- ]

[ delayed entry... again ]

[ http://www.addictinggames.com ]

[ reliving old memories ]

[ -RainbowBrite-inactis- ]

Tribute to Block J!!

RAW LiVE TOUR!!

Affirmation

~Happy-Hearts-Month!!~

**ChRiStMaSWiShLiSt**

You Are Strawberry Ice Cream!

What Flavor Ice Cream Are You? Take This Quiz :-)

[ uber late but still uber happy ]

[ ThE insert name here TriaD ]